Never Intended To.

It's Been 7 Minutes Past 2009.
I'm Quite Thrilled.
I Remember 2009 Like It Was Just A Few Minutes Ago.
I See People Blog And Facebook About 2009 And Shit,
So,
Since It's Malaysian 'Tradition'
_________

2009.
Honestly?
It Wasn't That Bad.
Some Of It Was Awesome,
Yet,
Some Was Worst Than The Purgatory Itself.
But Still,
I Have To Admit,
The Awesomest Part Of 2009,
Was Me.
I Know People Who Reads This May Think "WTF?!"
But,
2009 Made Me Awesome.
It Made Me Understand The Human Nature.
Worst Part Of 2009?
And The Award Goes To:


Lucas Pettersson.
'Big Round Of Applause'
His Goal In Life?
To Make Everyones Life A Living Hell.
Just When You're Nice To Him,
He Screws You Over Like A Slut.
No Offence.
__________

2010 Taste Like More Awesome F.O.B Songs,
Not To Mention Hopefully Atleast 1 Hot Girl
-Seb-

No. 1 Fan.

Guys Are Quite Easy.
For One,
It's Easy To Please A Guy.
There's Food And Sex.
Two Very Easy Ways.
(Well Not So Since It's Malaysia)
Most Girls Would Call Guys Dumb Because,
They Don't Understand.
But,
Honestly,
Guys Are Very Simple.
They Also Tend To Not Use Their Heads,
Mainly Just Doing Anything On Their Mind Without Thinking About The Consequences.
For Example:
Jackass.
Jackass Is Formed By Loads Of Guys Doing Stupid Stuff For Fun.
(Cool Bastards)
By Doing So,
They Hurt Themeselves.
Hence,
My Point.
One Thing I Hate About Being A Guy Is,
The Fact That You Will Fall For Almost Any Girl Who Is Nice To You,
Even For A While.
This Can Be Bad Because Girls,
Well,
They Don't Understand.
Compared To What Many Of You Would Like To Believe,
Guys Are Emotional.
They Might Not Show It,
But,
They Are.
Just To Act Macho In Front Of The Guys,
They Hide It,
They Act Like Assholes.
Not Only That,
Most Guys Are Shy.
Very Shy.
I Can't Even Talk To A Girl Without Freezing.
Guys Will Only Try Their Best If They Like You,
If They Don't Bother,
They Don't Bother.
_______________

Guys In Comparison To Girls.

How A Guy Chooses A Girl.
Guy's Little Voice:Do You Like Her?
Guy :Yes.

How A Girl Chooses A Guy:
Girl's Little Voice:Is He Hot?
Has He Got Nice Hair?
Does He Smell Good?
How Rich Is He?
Is He Good Looking?
(Etc)
Girl :He Isn't Good Enough.

___________

In Conclusion To The Above,
Almost All Girls Are Good Enough For Guys.
But,
Guys Have To Be Perfect For A Girls Attention.
___________

Yes Girls Are Smarter.
But,
Guys Make A Lot More Sense.
-Seb-

First Step To Total World Domination.

Just Because I'm In The Mood,
Merry Christmas!
As You Can See From My Title,
The First Step Of My World Domination Plan Has Been Complete.
6A's 1B
I Know Right?
I Love My Results.
Makes Me Look Cool.
Anyways,
For The Past Two Days,
I Have Been Asking Around For Everyone's Results,
I Have Had Mixed Comments.
Some People Congratulated Me,
Some Say I Didn't Deserve It.
But,
I'm Thrilled.
To Those Who Had Awesome:Congratulations!
To Those Who Not So Much:You Don't Judge Someone By How Good Their Grades Are,
Anyone Can Get Straight A's And Still Be Screwed Up,
But Real People Accept What They Have And Get On
With Life.
Straight A Dudes,
Better Keep An Eye Out For Us.
(I Checked My Spelling For This One)
I'm Stopping Here,
Well For One,
I'm Out Of Ideas.
Two,
Ben 10 Is On Tommorow.
_____________________________

Merry Christmas To All
And To All A Good Night.
-Tim Allen-

My Friend Said He Nearly Puked When He Saw You.

The Not So Perfect Guide To Teenage Girls These Days.

1. Girls Find Guys Which Are Assholes More Interesting.
I Don't Blame Them.
Most Nice Guys Freeze When They Come Near.
As I Was Saying,
The Best Way To Get A Girl,
Is To Be An Asshole.

2. Girls Love Attention.
Without Attention They Will Die.(More Or Less)
So...
The Less Attention You Give A Girl,
The More She Wants You.
And If You Ignore A Girl Long Enough,
I Promise You She Will Come Running.

3. Always Have Something To Say.
When The Girl You Like Had Enough Of
You Ignoring Her,
Start A Conversation.
Girls Get Bored Easily,
So It Is Wise To Have Loads To Say
Even If Its Meaningless.
When She Starts Laughing At Everything You Say,
You Have Her Right Where You Need.
Add Compliments.

4. Most Important Step.
Always Be Confident.
Never Be Desperate(Trust Me I Know)
Girls Can Tell When Your Desperate
And They WILL Use That To Their Advantage.

Now If You Want To Keep The Girl You Got.

1. Try Not Spending Too Much Time With Her.
As I Said Before,
Girls Get Bored Easily
And They Love Attention.
Limit Your Meets.

2. Never Say The Words 'I Love You'
Unless You Really Mean It.
If You Do Not Understand It,
Don't Say It At All.
(Something I Had To Learn The Hard Way)

3. Once You Have Her,
You Can Be Just A Little Bit Nicer.
But Still,
Being An Asshole Is The Perfect Way To Go.

4. Get Her Bullshit.
Chocolates, Flowers, Cards And Plushies.
Girls Like When You Give A Shit.
Or At Least Pretend.
Don't Over Do The Gifts,
She Will Get Bored.
______________________________________________

*Notice Theres 4 Steps In Each Of These Guide Things?
Thats Because I Have Made The Conclusion That You Don't Require To Much Steps When It
Comes To Girls.
I'm Not Saying They Are Easy,
They're Predictable(No Offence)
Not All Though.
Also Because It Takes 4 HeartBreaks To Totally Understand Things.

-Seb-

You Must Hate Me.

It's That Time Of Year Again.
So Far,
This Year Has Been Bullshit.
Not Just For Me But For A Loy Of People I Know.
So...
For This Christmas I Have Found The Best Song In The World.
Yule Shoot Your Eye Out
-Fall out Boy-

These Are Your Good Years
Don't Take My Advice
You Never Wanted The Nice Boys Anyway
And I'm Of Good Cheer
Cause I've Been Checking My List
The Gifts Your Receving From Me Will Be;

One Awkward Silence
And Two Hopes You Cry Yourself To Sleep
Staying Up Waiting By The Phone
And All I Want This Year
Is For You To Dedicate Your Last Breath To Me
Before You Bury Yourself Alive

Don't Come Home For Christmas
You're The Last Thing I Wanna See
Underneath The Tree
Merry Christmas
I Could Care Less

Happy New Year's Baby
You Owe Me The Best Gift I Will Ever Ask For
Don't Call Me Up
When The Snow Comes Down Is The Only Thing I Want This Year

One Awkward Silence
And Two Hopes You Cry Yourself To Sleep
Staying Up And Waiting By The Phone
And All I Want This Year
Is For You To Dedicate Your Last Breath To Me
Before You Bury Yourself Alive

Don't Come Home For Christmas
You're The Last Thing I Wanna See
Underneath The Tree
Merry Christmas
I Could Care Less

Don't Come Home For Christmas
You're The Last Thing I Wanna See
Underneath The Tree(Don't Come Home For Christmas)
Merry Christmas
I Could Care Less

Don't Come Home For Christmas
You're The Last Thing I Wanna See
Underneath The Tree(Don't Come Home For Christmas)
Merry Christmas
I Could Care Less

Patrick Stump Lisping:
Sweet!
Record The Christmas Song
They Must've Spent A Lotta Money On This
But This One Time
This One Christmas
I Got This
[Beeps Deck The Halls]

Sorry Is A Sad Excuse.

I Miss School.
Not The Studying Part,
The Awesome Part.
I Miss The Teachers Who Always Get Pissed At Me,
I Miss Getting Heartbroken,
I Even Miss My Table.
My Table Was So Awesome,
Just Look At It And You WILL Be Amazed.
I Miss My Dudes
And My Chicks.
I Miss Me Just Sitting In My Place,
Looking At Others And How Much Fun They Have.
Good Times.
I Miss My Uniform,
My Uniform Is The Coolest.
I Miss Hugging My Bag.
I Miss Our Science Lab And How We Used To Play With Zaki's Phone,
Our Science Teacher Was So Daft.
Most Of All,
I Miss Coming Home From School
And Playing Basketball With Friends Right After.
Awesome Times.

Any Questions?

Honestly?
I'm Out Of Ideas.
I Thought For One Day,
Just One Day,
People Would Respect Me.
I Swear To God Not One Person Takes Me Seriously.
I Will Try Falling Asleep Now,
Drown Out The Voices In My Head With A Pill.

Oh Alright Love.

I Spent My Time These Past Weeks Moping Around.
Feeling Sorry For Myself.
And Giving People Second Chances.
(This Does Not Have Anything To Do With Anyone Its Just In My Head)
A Few Days Ago,
A Woke Up To The Sound Of Rain.
Wen't Out.
Came Back.
When I Was Just Outside My House,
I Met My Friend.
I Barely Said Anything.
Way To Go Seb.
Days Go By,
Time Progresses And We All Get Older.
As I Get Older,
I Begin To Understand The True Meaning Of Life.
Not That I'm That Old.
But,
Still.
Nothing Can Fix A Broken Heart.
I Guess,
I'll Just Be,
Until I Find Someone Who Gives A Shit.
I Also Realised,
Most People Enjoy Tormenting Others For The Sake Of 'Fun'
It Maybe Fun For You,
But Try Using That Lump In Your Skull;
If You Wouldn't Like It,
What Makes You Think Others Will?
We're All Fucking Red On The Inside.
Treat People By How They Act,
Not Based On The Colour Of Their Skin.
I Don't Belong In This Country.
Racist Country.
Races With Races,
Not Mixing.
When They Do Mix,
The Odd One Out Acts Like He/She Is A Certain Colour.
People Are Fake.
Have A Nice Year.

Get Busy Living Or Get Busy Dying.

Life Is Shit And Then You Die.
Full Stop.
A Wise Person Told Me That And I Don't Deny It.
Its Been About A Week Since My Last Post.
And I Got A Big Cut On My Foot.
Hard To Believe That My Flip-Flops Could Do Such A Thing.
My Brother Got A Puppy.
It's Not Bad.
But It Smells Really Bad Though.
I Mainly Chilled And Home,
With All The Retards Judging Me.
Quite Fun.
If You Knew Me,
You Wouldn't Call Me Lifeless.
I Am An Awesome Guy.
All Of You Guys Trying To Put Me Down For What?
In Hopes Of Getting In The Good Books Of One Girl?
Life Does Not Revolve Around One Girl,
Heck,
Life Doen Not Revolve Around Me.
So Whats Your Problem?
Just Because I'm Better Than You Doesn't Mean You Get To Fuck With My Mind.
You Guys Are Blaming Me For No Reason.
Wouldn't You Feel Fucked After The Supposed Girl Of Your Dreams Said She Was Uncomfortable Around You?
After You've Tried So Hard?
I'm Pretty Pissed With You Shits.
Going Around Thinking You're Some Hot Bastards.
You Probally Have Loads Of Pimples All Over The Thing You Stare At In The Mirror,
I Bet You Spend You're Freetime Cumming All Over Your Keyboard.
You Have Something To Say?
Say It To My Face.
If Not,
Don't Say Anything At All.

Your's Truly
-TheGuyYouThinkShouldDie-
____________________________

From Day One I Talked About Getting Out,
But Not Forgetting About,
How My Worst Fears Are Letting Out,
He Said;Why Put A New Address
On The Same Old Lonelyness,
When Breathing Just Passes The Time,
Until We All Just Get Old And Die,
Now Talking's Just A Waste Of Breath,
And Livings Just A Waste Of Death,
And Why Put A New Address,
On The Same Old Lonelyness,
And This Is You And Me,
And Me And You,
Until We've Got Nothing Left.
-Fall out Boy-

Ganja Fuck.

So As You May Know,
There's Loads Of Shitholes Out There Who Hates Me.
They Think They Can Fuck Me Up.
0129701145
My Number For You Guys.
Be My Guest.
Just For The Fucking Record,
I Will Change The World With My Awesomeness,
My Holy Awesomeness.
I Can Let What You Cunt Shit Fuck Turd Faces Say Get To Me,
But I Won't.
I Have Better Shit To Do.
Also,
Micheal Jackson Is Dead.
He Is Gay.
As Much As I Respect Him I Don't Like Sucking Up To Dead People.
So Why Don't You Piss Off?
Plus,
Fall Out Boy Is The Most Awesomest Band In The Whole Wide World.
Fuck You Little Retard Fucks.
One More Thing,
Yana Is My Friend,
And You Have A Problem With ME,
So Let Her Say What She Wants To Say.
Enjoy Whats Left Of Your Life Before I Fuck It Up.
-Seb-

I Fucking Hate You.

Hate Means To Dislike Strongly Or To Detest.
Someone Once Told Me,
Hate Is A Strong Word,
I Don't Give A Shit About Him/Her.
Without Hate There Can't Be Any Humanity.
Hating Is Just Human Nature.
I Hate Loads Of Shit,
I Hate My Gay Friend, M.
I Hate vishnuputhanabamanananmananmn And Every Other Pussy In This World,
I Hate The Fact That People Take Advantage Of Others And Says Nothing,
I Hate Cute Little Ticks People Have,
I Hate People In General,
I Detest Them,
Despise Them.
In This World,
This Big, Black World,
There's Only Two People I Trust,
Bondy And Roshan.
They Are Honest About Who They Are.
Other People Hide In Shadows Of What Others Want Them To Be,
That Really Pisses Me Off.
Others Are Fuck Arrogant And Think They Can Do Anything They Want Without Contemplating How Normal People Feel.
There's Also A Certain Population Who Has To Pick On A Certain Person Knowing That Person Is A Lot Better And By Doing So Helps Them Get Over Their Insecurity.
I Hate Mankind.
I Help Them By Telling Them The Truth,
They Get Pissed,
They Ignore Me.
I Know I'm Right.
Heres All The Letters Of The Names Of People I Hate Most(some of which have been changed so as not to hurt the feelings of them)
M
H
E
C
vishnuputhamanbanamabmanbamannmabanm
anonynmous
captainbubtterrfigurezz
______________________________

This Part Of The Post Goes To vishnuputhanamabanamaba.
Hi DouscheBag!
How Are You?
Good?
Whats Your Problem?
Tell Me Why Your Special?
Let Me Know What I Did To Piss You Off So Much.
You Want To Kill Me?
Be My Guess.
You Would Be Doing The World A Load Of Bullshit.
Its Me Who Is Going To Change The World,
Not You,
Not The Stupid Parents Who Gave You A Shit Name,
No,
Me.
I'm Going To Change The World Whether You Like It Or Not.
So Enjoy Fucking Your Goats You Talk So Much About,
And,
Keep Thinking Your Better Then Me,
Maybe One Day While Your Asleep,
You'll Dream That You Are.
Cya
-Seb-

Blind Acquisitions Of A Saint.

So I Switch On My Computer Right?
I Go On To Blogger.com Right?
Then I Sign In And Look At The Comments I Got.
I Got Two,
Which I Consider Quite Good.
When I Check Them Out Its From;
vishnupuithanambamnenamamnnamanamnan And
captainbuterrfigures
More Or Less.
So This Two Retards Right?
They Tell Me I'm A Retard And I'm Pussy,
And I'm Quite Sick Of That So,
To visnupatamnamnabanmamnamnmammanan And capatainbuttterfiguerszz
Fuck You.
_________________________

I Have Really Important News,
This Is Probally The Most Important Thing That Has Ever Happened To The World,
I Got Fall Out Boy's New Album, Believers Never Die,
And My God Is It Awesome?
AWESOME!!!!!!!!!
AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!
AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!
AWESOME!!!!!!
Its So AWESOME!!!!!!! I Can't Describe How AWESOME!!!!!! It Is.
Worth All The Money In My Savings.
-Seb-

Dear Pope,

I'm Quite Sick Of The World.
Not Much,
But,
Quite.
For One,
Nobody Seems To Acknowledge The Fact I Exist.
Its Frustrating Because I Do Great-ish Things.
I Try My Best To Be The One That Everybody Likes,
Nothing I Do Seems To Be Ok Enough For This Retarded World.
Secondly,
When People Do Realise Me,
Its To Make Fun Of Me,
Underestimate Me,
Treats Me Like I'm A Little Bastard.
I Know I'm Not That Smart,
I Know I'm Quite Retarded,
But,
You're Not Perfect Too,
So.
You Know,
Fuck.
People Read My Blog Once In A While,
They're Like,
What A Noob,
What A Pathetic Little Fucktard.
And They Laugh.
It Makes Me Not Want To Live.
If This Is Life,
I'm Better Off Dead.
I Have Come To This Conclusion That Isolating Myself Is The Best Thing To Do,
Not From Everyone,
Just People Who Hate Me.
What Are Friends If All They Want Is To Be Better Than You?
Fuck It.
I'm Not Saying I'm A Pussy,
And That I Can't Deal With A Little Critiscm,
It's Bullshit Because Everything I Do Gets Critizced.
What The Fuck?!
I Can't Even Spell?
I'm Telling You This Is Total Bullshit.
I Was Born On An Even Numbered Day,
Even Numbered Month,
And An Even Numbered Year,
And I'm Quite Odd.
Not Much,
But Quite.
-Sebastian'NotGoodEnoughForTheWorld'Pettersson-

Innocence Doesn't Exist.

This Post Goes Out Especially To My "Best" Friend Anonymous.
Dude,
First Of All,
Sherie Is Not Innocent.
At All.
Calling Her Innocent Is Like Calling You Smart.
Never Will Work.
Second,
What Is Your Problem?
You Want To Say Something Say It To My Face.
Where Do You Want To Go To Settle This?
Name When And Where.
Third,
I'm Not Scared Of You.
Do You Really Think You Can Mess With Me?
I Dare You.
Mr.Dickweed?
Stop Flossing Your Teeth With Pubes.
And Do Me A Favor?
Fuck Yourself With A Thermos?
Thanks.
Cya
-Seb-

Un-Natural Emotion.

Love.
What Is Love?
According To A Dictionary.
Love Is A Warm Liking Or Affection.
But...
Seriously.
What Is Love?
Honestly,
I Stopped Believing In Love.
To Me Love Does Not Exist.
But To Others,
Love Is Everything.
I Have Been Through A Relationship Where I Try My Best,
Every Guy Tries Their Best,
Their Partners Seem To Think Otherwise.
Love Upsets People,
Love Changes People,
Love Cures People.
Love Has No Definite Meaning.
I Still Don't Believe In Love.
Girls,
Ask Your Boyfriends,
If They Were Given The Chance To Sleep With You Just For The Sake Of It,
They Will Say Yes.
Most Guys Pretend To Care About You So You Trust Them And Then Get Into Bed With Them.
Thats "Love"For You.
I Used To Be Naive.
Thinking That Love Is Real,
I Used To Look At Her And Think Nothing Could Be More Beautiful,
Now I Feel Disgusted And Sick.
Love.
Whats The Point Of Love If All It Does Is Hurt People?
I'm Not Wise,
I'm No Genius,
All I'm Saying Is 'What Is Love?'
Love Is An Emotion Invented By Humans To Make Money.
If There Wasn't Love There Wouldn't Be Valentines Day,
No Cards Or Plushies Saying 'I Love You'
That's What I Think.
Love Was Invented So People Don't Feel Lonely,
But Thats The Whole Point Of Friends,
You Don't Need To Love Friends,
You Just Hang Out With Them.
Love.
When The "Love" Is Gone From A Couple,
One Of Them Will Always Feel Like Dying,
The Other One Wants To Be Friends,
Fuck Being Friends,
I Love You Says The One Which Feels Like Dying,
The Other One Says I Thought I Did Too But I Don't.
See How Painful Love Is?
See How Much Misery It Brings?
I'm Sure If Anyone Knew It Would Be Like That,
Love Would Never Have Existed.
Love.
I Don't Believe In Love.
You Prove To Me There's Love,
And I'll Do Anything.
-Seb-
________________________________________

I Heard This Poem From A Movie,
It's Really Cool But Offensive,

Roses Are Red,
Violets Are Blue,
Fuck You Whore.

Synically Optimistic.

I'm Not Going To Be A Total Buzzkill And Talk About How Retarded The World Is.
No.
I'm Going To Talk About The Fact That I, Sebastian Pettersson, Wasn't Made For Life.
Now This Is True And I'm NOT Making Any Of This Up.
When I Was Born,
I Was Born Perfect.
I Was So Perfect,
God Envied Me.
So He Put A Curse On Me.
Now Everything I Do Screws Up.
I Can't Even Walk Around Without Hurting Myself.
Few Minutes Ago,
I Wanted To Lie Down,
My Hand Missed The Floor,
MISSED THE FLOOR,
And I Fell.
I Don't Blame Him,
Everyone Feels Intimidated By Me.
I Am That Awesome.
Everyone Always Puts Me Down And Bullies Me And Screws With Me Head,
And I Can't Do Anything To Retaliate Because They Get Pissed.
People Say I'm Fucked Up,
I Say They're Fucked Up,
They Just Can't Handle Me Telling Them Truth About Themselves.
I Hate Part Of The World.
-Seb-
______________________________________

P.S A Wise Person Once Told Me,
If You Have Nothing Good To Say,
Don't Say It.

Not Everything In This World Is Related To You.

Today In The Book Of Seb;
Anonymous People.
I Don't Get Anonymous People.
They Want You To Know They Exist,
But They Don't Want You To Know Who They Are?
I Think Anonymmous People Are Pussies.
If You Want To Say Something To Someone,
Do It Face To Face.
What I Hate Most About Anonymous People Are,
The Fact That They Think They Know You And Then Tell YOU How To Live YOUR Life.
What's Up With That?
See,
Here's The Thing,
I Am Sebastian Pettersson.
I Do Whatever I Want.
You Have No Right To Tell Me To Do Anything.
Plus,
If You Get It In Your 'Anonymous' Head That My Life Revolves Around What Used To Be,
Fuck You.
Who Are You To Tell Me To Get A Life?!
You're The One Reading My Blog,
Why Don't You Shoot Me If I Can't Write Anything On MY Blog?!
Retard.
_______________________________________

Yes.
This Post Is Personal.
So What?
_______________________________________

The Road Outside My House,
Is Paved With Good Intentions.
-Fall out Boy-
_______________________________________

-TheGuyWhoDoes'ntHaveTheRightToDoAnything-

Girls Are From Mercury.

Topic Of Today Is Girls.
Girls Are Really Complicating And Confusing And Frustrating.
What I Mean Is;
They Don't Speak Their Mind Much,
And When They Do,
Its Because They Hate You.
They Also Tend To Have The Worst Taste When It Comes To Guys.
I Mean,
Robert Pattinson?!
Tyson Ritter?!
What The Fuck?!
I Just Puke At That Thought.
Girls These Sort Of Guys Don't Even Look Good.
Plus,
They Barely Shower.
Most Of The Time The Are Assholes.
Everyone Can Be Assholes But 'They' Are Born Assholes.
And When These Girls Are Actually With These Guys,
They Don't Leave Them,
They Just Don't Leave Them.
Girls Blow Off All The Good Guys, Break Their Hearts.
They Don't Appreciate Anything They Have.
Girls Also Think They Know Everything.
They Pretend To Be The Worlds Biggest Encyclopedia.
If They Don't Know Something It Drives Them Crazy.
One Really Big Problem With Girls Is;
They Tell You Not To Lie To Them And Make It Impposible For You To Tell The Truth.
They Get Pissed When You Lie,
They Get Pissed When You Tell The Truth.
Girls Also Need To Win.
All The Time.
If They Can't Win,
They Make Life Hell For You.
________________________________

That's What I Think Of Girls.
Can't Live With Them, Can't Live Without Them.
I'm Not Trying To Be Sexist Or Anything,
I'm Just Speaking My Mind.
Sue Me If I'm Wrong.
________________________________

You're Not In On The Joke.
-Cobra Starship-
________________________________

-ThePartOfSebThatHatesGirlsButAlsoNeedsThemToSurvive-

I 'Love' You.

This One Goes Out To All My Haters.
If You Think I Suck,
If You Think I'm Childish,
If You Think I'm Dramatic,
Stop Reading.
Simple As That.
You Don't Have To Get Pissed At The Truth.
I Mean,
Seriously.
This Is My Blog.
I Do Whatever Fuck I Want.
______________________________________

Now This Part Goes Out To James.
Dude,
When You Think You Had A Bad Day,
It Could Be Worst.
Someone Else, Could Have It Worst.
All You Have To Do Is Sit Back And Relax,
Knowing Tommorow Will Be Alot Better.
-Scrubs-
______________________________________

This Final Part Goes Out To Low-Lives.
Only Retards Pretend To Know The Meaning Of Love.
Only Retards Go Around Acting Like They Know Everything.
Only Retards Message Other People Hoping They Would Feel Sorry.
I Just Can't Stand Retards.
Except Me I Am The Retard.
_______________________________________

If You Wanted To Post Gay Lyrics At Least Put The Artists' Name Below It.

_______________________________________

-Seb-

BlowJob.

I Started Looking At Life From A New Perspective,
It's Really Weird.
Normal People Just Can't Handle The Truth.
They Also Don't Like Change.
Take Bands For Instance,
People Like Certain Bands Because They Have Certain Sounds And Styles And Genres,
When These Bands Start To Try Something New,
People Get Pissed.
Weird.
I Think I Know Now Why I'm A Retard In The Eyes Of Millions,
It's Because Of The Way I Think And Do Things.
I Usually Don't Give A Fuck,
But,
This Is Total Bullshit.
We Probaly Were Made To Be Like This,
But,
I Just Think Its Screwed Up.
If We Can't Live With Change Or Truth,
It Would Be A Waste To Keep Living.
I Know You Think That I'm Retarded Or Psycho,
But Then Again,
Aren't The Best Always A Little Different?
____________________________________________

Can We Fast Forward To Go Down On Me.
-Panic! At The Disco-
____________________________________________

-Seb-

Coma.

If I Would Fall,
Help Me Stand Up.
Out Of The Goodness Of My Strawberry Tart,
I Help People.
What Do I Get In Return?
Bullsh*t.
Everything I Do Seems To Be Wrong,
And When I Shut The F*ck Up,
People Get Pissed.
_____________________________________________

F*ck That ^
_____________________________________________

I'm Afraid That I,
Well I've Been Thinking,
People Do Not Give A Rats Ass About Me,
But I Actually Have To Give A Shit.
I Don't Find That Fair At All.
Some Say I've Changed,
I Just Think That They Have A Problem With The Truth.
I Mean,
What Did You Expect From Me?
_____________________________________________

You Want To Dance With Me?
Well Too Bad.
'You' Screwed Up My Life,
What Makes 'You' So Special?
No Friendly-ness For 'You'
_____________________________________________

I Might Be Retarded But I Am Me.
Deal With It.

-The Retard-

ALPHA DOG AND OMEGALOMANIAC.

FALL OUT BOY IS OFFICIALLY THE MOST AWESOMEST BAND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This Morning I Discovered Something That Would Change My Life Forever,
It Was The New Single From Fall Out Boy's New Album, Believers Never Die, Greatest Hits.
It Is ALPHA DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It Is Fucking Amazing How Awesome It Is.
Alpha Dog Made My Day.
I Am So Happy.
Go To FallOutBoyRock.com To Check It Out.
OR...
Go On Youtube And Search For It.
It Is Just Orgasmic.
Get Their New Album On November 16th I Know I Definitely Will.

OMEGALOMANIAC!!

-Seb-

P.S A.K.A Fall Out Boy's Number 1 Fan In The World!!!!!!!!!F.o.B For Life!!!!!!!!

My Empty Room.

If You Rub Salt In Your Eyes...
Wouldn't It Hurt?
If So,
Why Doesn't Your Tears Burn?
She Tells Me That She Loves Me,
But She Goes And Hurt Me,
Time And Time Again.
I Will Fall Asleep Alone,
Dreaming Of His Lips On Yours.
Seems Like Everytime You Come Back Into My Life,
You Steal My Heart And Leave.
I Like Punk Music,
People Think I Call It 'Punk' To Be Cool,
Truth Is I Could Not Be Bothered With What People Think.
I Like Ben 10.
I Like Cartoons.
I Like Being A Kid.
I Dis-like Nerd Faces.(No Offence)
I Dis-like Homosexualiaty.(No Offence)
I Dis-like HeartBreakers.

I Find Black People Cool.
Everyone Is Red On The Inside,
Everyone Is Good And Evil,
Everyone Is Cool And Nerdy,
Everyone Is Emo And Un-Emo,(I Guess)
If You Can't Handle The Fact That Everyone Is Akward And Confident Or All Of The Above,
You Might As Well Break My Heart.
Oh,
Thats Right,
You Already Did.

Where Were You When I Needed You Most,
Why Did You Leave Me Alone,
You Gave Up Before You Gave It A Chance,
I Don't Understand.
-Every Avenue-

-Seb-

The Best Selling Biography Of The Awesome.

People Call Me Strange,
People Call Me Weird,
People Call Me Retarded,
People Call Me Psycho-pathic,
And People Call Me Fucked Up.
I Don't Mind What People Say
Because No Matter What,
I Am The Most Awesomest.
In The World.
Officially.
I Can Make Your Heart Slow Or Beat Really Fast.
I'm Not A Shoulder To Cry On,
I Can Try But I'm Not Promising Anything.
I Never Needed Your Symphaty.
When I Love It's Hard To Stop.
I Have Feelings Which Are Meant For 'You' To Hurt.
I Try To Be Nice,
And People Take Advantage Of Me.
I Mean...
I Guess I'm Fine With That But Even Heroes Have The Right To Bleed.
I Have Lots Of Patience,
But When I'm Pissed I Stay Pissed.
Only With Certain People Though.
I Hurt People With What I Say Because It's The Truth.
I Stopped Cutting Myself...
I Finaly Realised It's A Waste Of My Awesome Blood.
One Last Thing?
I Practically Lived For Her.

-Seb-

If Hearts Could Walk And Talk

Let Me Tell You A Story About A Boy And A Girl,
There Once Was A Boy Who Saw This Girl,
He Thought She Was The Prettiest Thing In The Whole Wide World.
So,
He Tried Getting Close To Her,
She Broke His Heart A Few Times But,
He Still Tried.
After What Everyone Said About Her,
He Still Tried.
After A While,
A Miracle Happened And They Were Happy,
Well The Boy Was.
He Didn't Realise That She Was Pretending.
Until One Day,
She Said Some Stuff That Broke His Heart Beyond Repair.
She Had Left Him Hanging.
Yesterday,
She Tried Talking To Him,
After The 'Incident'
And All He Said Was 'There's Nothing Else To Be Said'(More Or Less)
What's Wrong With That?
I Mean,
She Broke His Heart.
The Boy Didn't Know What Else To Say.
As He Watched Her That Day He Felt Bad Because He Knew He Hurt Her,
He Didn't Mean To.
It Made Him Look Like HE Was The Bad Guy
When All He Did Was Keeping All The Little Bits Of His Heart Safe.
He Is Relatively, A Nice Guy.
Today,
They Made Up.
She Was Sobbing And They Hugged.
That Made Him Think...
The Boy Realised He Still Loves Her.
I Mean Come On.
After All The Bullshit?
Yeah...
He Still Loves Her.
But Its His Fault It Ended.
Right?
I Mean Its His Fault He Is Stupid,
Its His Fault He Is Cheesy,
Its His Fault She Felt Uncomfartable Around Him.
I Just Wanted You Guys To Know,
Breaking Hearts Is Just Human Nature.
Being Imperfect Is Just Human Nature.
Thinking That People Can Change Is Just Human Nature.

-Seb's Other Side-

P.S All Of This Shit Is Copyrighted.
P.P.S 'If You Wanted A Song Written About You, All You Had To Do Was Ask' By Mayday Parade Is Awesome.

Not Everything In This World Is My Fault.

I'm Out Of Ideas,
Out Of Inspiration.
I Guess I'll Just Say Random Things.
First Of All,
Fall Out Boy Is The Most Awesomest Band In The World.
Second,
The Cab And Mayday Parade Are Bands You Should Look Out For.
And Third,
Some Malaysian People Are Fucked Up.
My Definition Of Fucked Up 'Malaysian People'
Is Foreign People Born In Malaysia.(Except James, He Is Awesome)
So Normal Malaysian People Are Ok I Guess.
Please Take This To Heart 'Malaysian People'
And With Every Breath I Wish Your Body Would Be Broken Again.
One More Time,
Normal Malaysians Are Awesome-ish.
So Enough About Stuff.
I Realised That I Deserve A Lot Better.
Instead Of The Usual Bullshit.
I Guess What I'm Saying Is...
I'm Moving On And Changing My Lifestyle.
No More Desperation And No More Push Over-Ness.
So If You're Looking To Hook Up(Girls Only),
Promise You Won't Break My Heart.

-Seb-

Can I Just Fucking Die?Please?

THE HOLIDAY-HeartBroke
It All Started On A Beatiful Friday Morning.
Seb's Alarm Was Ringing And He Was Supposed To Get Up And Meet His Friends At Their Study Group Thing..With The Help Of His Mom He Was All Ready.
As Seb And Zaki Walked To Loo's Place He Was Pretty Excited Mainly Because He Would See Her..When All Of Them Reached McD,
Seb Was Dissapointed To Not Seeing Her And Got A Little Worried.
After A While She Showed Up And Seb Was Blown Away At How Pretty She Looked..The Guy Who Practises All Of His Lines In The Mirror Had Nothing To Say And Just Admired Her..
Like Around 3 Hours Later She Said Some Stuff And Seb...
Well Seb Was Torn Up Inside.
Every Bone In His Body Felt Weak.
All Of His Blood Started To Freeze..
And Once Again She Had Left Him Heart Broken.
Holding Back His Tears..
He Just Sat There, Thinking Real Hard On What To Do Next..
They Didn't Talk Much After That
Not With Each Other Anyways.
When It Was Time To Go..
Seb Waited For His Friends And She Gave Him A Hug.
And They Went Outside For A Bit..
They Went Back In..
Deciding It Was Best To Stay.
The Guys Just Left Her There Eventually And Seb Wanted To Stay But His Heart Was Bleeding All Over The Place And Just Needed To Go..
Zaki And Seb Walked To James' House And Stayed There For A Bit..
Before Zaki Had To Go Tuition.
On The Way There Seb Was All Depressed And Weird Telling All His Bullshit To Zaki..
Zaki Gave Some Advice And Stuff But Seb Was Still Fucking Sad..
Seb Decided He Was Going To Move On But After A Whole Day He Started To Miss The Person He Needed The Most,
The Person Who Broke His Heart..
Seb Talked To Zaki Until 2 In The Morning Figuring Out What Had To Be Done..
He Went To Sleep That Night(Barely Being Able To)
Without Cutting Himself.
On Saturday,
Seb Was On His Way To James' House Again..
Looking Optimistic About Hanging Out, Watching Ben 1o, Having A Couple Of Burgers..
Hanging Out Part Was Awesome All They Did Was Go To The 'CC' And Stayed At Home Not Having Any Worries..
But Wat Was Sad Was...
The TV Network Had Cancelled Ben 10..
How Could Anyone Do That?!
I Mean Seriously.
Ben 10 Is The Most Awesomest Cartoon In The World..
That Crushed Seb's Hopes Completely..
After Having Spent The Whole Day There..
Seb Went Back Home On Sunday Dead Tired And Messed Up..
Just When You Think It Couldn't Get Any Worse...
Seb Got On His Facebook And Got Ignored By Her..
2 Fucking Slashes In 3 Days..
A Man Can Only Take So Much..
So Here He Sits Depressed And Heart Broken And Sad And Crushed And Lonely Trying Not To Kill Himself To See If Tommorow Would Be Better..
Thats The Only Thing You Can Hope For Nowadays..
For A Better Tommorow..

-Seb's Other Side-

P.S I Am So Fucking Sad And Cold.I Feel Like Putting A Fucking Bullet In My WorthLess Head.

I Will Die Trying To Move On.

I Just Want You Guys To Know..
That I Am Fucked Up..
Seriously...
I'm Not Perfect.
I Don't Think Anyone Is..
So...
I Don't Blame Anyone For Not Liking Me..
Let Me Just Get One Thing Straight..
See,
I Have A Heart..
And I Have Feelings..
You Don't Go Around Breaking Peoples Heart,
Or Hurting Their Feelings..
Not 2 Weeks Away From One Of The Most Important Exams Of Their Lives..
You Know What?
Fuck It..
Just Fuck It..
Fuck Life,
I Bleed For Myself.
Until I Fucking Die,
I Bleed For Myself.

Life Is The Hole In A**Hole

Life's A Bitch..
One Minute You're Looking Forward To Something.
The Next Minute You Find Out That You Might Lose Everything You Ever Cared About.
My Day Hasn't Exactly Been A Perfect Day..
I Woke Up Looking Forward To Seeing Her.
And 'BOOM' Comes This News About Stuff..
I Mean...
I'm Ok With That.
I Guess..
But Still It's Dissapointing..
Just When You Think Everything Is Alright,
Life Just Slaps You In The Face..
I Respect Her Decision, Don't Get Me Wrong.
Anyone Would Choose Anyone Else Over Me.
But I Have Feelings Too..
And I Guess I'm A Little Sad.
Plus I Have A Trial Thing Tommorow And I Don't Know What To Do..
My Mind's A Mess Right Now.
This Is The Reason Why I Don't Have Much Faith In The Big Guy Up There..
God Help Me..

-Seb-

Blum-Ness + Bored-ification=DUM DUM DUM DUM

Today...
Well It Wasn't Bad I Guess..
Compared To All The Bullsh*it I Brought To Myself..
So Yeah..
It Wasn't Bad..
I Talked To Sherie..
And Went To Bondy's House..
And Played With Rambo..


But...
I Still Miss Sherie..
And I Love Her..
I Can't Stand A Day Without Her..
So I Try My Best On Weekends..
It Doesn't Work..
But Still...
I Promise Myself I'm Going To Study Tomorrow..
So Call Me Up To Remind Me..
Oh Yeah..


My Phone Is Awesome..
It's Cool..
I Call It 'Fon'
It's Black With Red Designs..
And It's An XpressMusic..
That Means It's Twice As Awesome..
I'm Bored..


I Miss Her To Much To Do Anything Else..
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Random-ness..
I Miss Her So Much..
I Just Want To Stare In Her Beautiful Eyes And Forget About The World.

-ChesseBall-

P.S. All The Dates Have Been Mixed Up So Yeah.

I'll Give You Reason.

I Spent One Whole Day Without Her..
I'm Sad..
Really Sad.
I Did This Because I Can't Talk About Stuff She Likes..
And It's Killing Me.
Plus She Likes Some Other Guy..
So...
Yeah.
I Might Be Wrong But It Still Hurts.

I Tried So Hard To Keep My Distance..
For What?
I Don't Really Know..
So I Guess I'll Just Spend The Rest Of My Day Feelling Sad And Worthless..
I Love Her, Don't Get Me Wrong.
I Just Want To Make Her Happy And I Can't..
I'm Going To Go Cut Myself Now...

The 'Perfect' Friday.

Its Been About Nine Hours Since I Last Saw You.
But..
I'm Not Good At Maths..
So..
It Might Be More, Or, Less.
I Miss You.
A Lot.

Let Me Tell You About A Day In The Life Of Sebastian Pettersson.
He Wakes Up All Groggy And Sleepy..
Barely Awake..
But He Gets Up Anyway..
To See Her..
Seb Gets Ready For School,
And On The Way There...
He Realises Some Of His Friends Words Got To Him..
(Being Slow He Only Realised This After One Whole Day)
You See Seb Here.
He Does Not No What To Do With His Feelings..
So He Acts In Stupid Ways And Tends To Alienate His Friends And Loved Ones.
He Doesn't Mean To But What Can You Expect From A Person Who Does Not Use His Brain.
After A While He Pushed His Emotions A Way And Became Normal...
I Guess.
During Art Class,
He Was Sitting With Sherie.
And Some Of Their Friends Came As Well..
Sherie And John And Zaki..
They Were Discussing Methods Of Math Thing..
Being The Genius Sherie Won..
But Seb Couldn't Understand Anything And Felt Left Out..
So He Kept Hema Company While Hema Was Doing His Maths And..
Yeah..
You Get The Point Right?
After Art Was English..
We Went To The Library..
And Stuff..
Sat Down And Sherie Started Talking To Akiff..
So Once Again Seb Felt Left Out..
He Didn't Say Anything But...
If You Had Saw Him From Where I Was Looking At..
You Would Have Seen The Confusion In His Eyes..
English Was The Last Subject Of The Day..
And Seb Was Reluctant To Leave Sherie,
Knowing That He Was Not Going To See Her For Three More Days..
So That Was That And It Was The End Of School..

Coming Back Home..
To His A**hole Of A Brother..
Wasn't Very Nice.
His Brother Never Left Him Alone.
And I Guess That Would Be Okay If His Brother Didn't Bully Or Blackmail Him Every Second Of The Day..
Yes His Brother Is Younger..
But Seb Is..
Well..
Nice In Certain Ways..
So After A Whole Day
And When Everyones Asleep..
Seb Lays In His Bed Waiting For This 'Nightmare' To End..


THE END

I Miss Sherie So Much..
-CheeseBall-

=) x 7=Happy

I Can't Get My Dopey Smile Off My Face.
You Know Why?
Cuz Sherie Replied My Message.
I'm Probally The Happiest Boy In The World.
=)
=)
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=)
=)
=)
=)
There's 7 Smiley's Because I Haven't Seen Her In A Week.
But..
She Replied My Message.
Enough Of My Happiness..
Back To The Real Point Of My Blog.

My Mom Hates Me.
It Just Feels Like She Does..
I Mean..
I Didn't Even Do Anything Wrong.
Who Cares?
I Don't Need Her.
I Guess...
Ok.I Do Need Her, But I'm Not Going To Apologize For The Nothing-ish-ness I Did..

Sometimes I Wish I Could Take Sherie's Hand And Run Away.
And Go To A Far Away Place Where Nothing Can Get To Us..
That's Only If Sherie Wants To.
I'm Happy Even If She Doesn't.
In Terms Of Going Away..

I Can't Even Get My Words Right..
Gosh.
Sometimes I Get So Pissed At Myself.
At Least I Have My Mineral Water...
And My Beloved Sherie.
=)
I Love Her.
And I Miss Her.
A Lot.
A Lot Lot.
A Lot Lot Lot Lot.
You Get The Point?
I Love Her.
And...
Goodnight.

-CheeseBall-

P.S: You Mean The World To Me.

Nothing Without You.

This Is How I Feel Right Now.
_____________________________

The World:Just Die Seb.Drop Dead Right Now And Die.
Seb :Why?
The World:Because...Um,Noone Likes You,You Screwed Up To Many Times And Well Your Family Is Against You.
Seb :I Get The Point.But People Make Mistakes, Everyone Deserves A Second Chance.
The World:Not You.
Seb: :This Whole Week Has Been F***ed.I Miss Her To Death And There's Almost Nothing I Can Do.
The World:All The More Reason To Die.
Seb :Hey!Everyone Needs Someone To Protect Them..And Without Sherie..
The World:Who Cares!?
Seb :I Do!I Love Her And That Is All That Matters.So Why Don't You Just Shut The F*** Up.
The World:You Left Me Speechless...
Seb :Good For You.
Seb :Who Am I Kidding..I'm Already Dead Without Her..
______________________________________________

Glad I Got 'That' Of My Chest.
Good Night.
-CheeseBall-

Weird-ness Of Me

12.06 a.m. I Can't Sleep.
I'm Thinking Of You.
I Am So Depressed Because I Haven't Seen You For 3 Days..
How Am I Going To Survive For Another Week?

Anyways...
I'm Beginning To Love Myself.
But Not As Much As Loving You..
You Know You Gotta Help Me Out.

I Miss You.
I Just Hope You Miss Me Too.
=)

Today..
Well Sunday,
Was Boring..
I Didn't Go Out..
So...
Yeah.

I Love You..
I Love You So Much.
I Love You With All My Heart And More..

I Had A Dream..
It Was A Bad Dream.
It Started With School,
Your 'Mark' Was There.
In My Dream He Was A Huge Version Of Zakee.
I Got Angry And I Picked A Fight With Him..
The Good News Is..
I Won.
Yeah..
Not Such A Good Dream Eh?

=(
Worst Comes To Worst.
I Would Have To Let You Go..
I Just Hope You're Happy..
And If It's Not With Me Then...Fine.

I'm Not Helping In Cheering Myself Up.
____________________________________________________________________

Fustrated At What He Did, Seb Reached For His Blade. At That Moment He Realised He Made A Promise To The Love Of His Life And Hesitated Before Looking Away.. Tears In His Eyes Aching To Be In Her Presence.
He Went On His Knees And Looked Into The Sky And Started To Pray.
"Dear God,I Know I Haven't Been Praying Much But..Will You Help Me?"
God Heard His Prayer And Decided To Give This Guy A Break.
"Thanks God, You're The Best"said Seb To himself.
____________________________________________________________________

Please Ignore My Breakdown.
=)
I Miss You Sherie.
I Want To Be With You.
I Love You.

-CheeseBall-

Saturday

I Woke Up Earlier Today.
Just Like I Would On Saturday.
Then I Started Thinking Of How Much I Missed You.
And..
And All The Stupid Things I Would Do:
I Watched Ben 10,
I Ate Loads Of Pizza,
Played Basketball With Loo,
And Started Thinking Of You.

I Realised The Things I Used To Say About You Weren't Very Nice.
But That Was Only Because You Broke My Heart.
I Know Thats A Stupid Reason..
Cuz I Know You Never Meant To..
So I Just Want To Let You Know That I Love You And I'm Sorry.
I Love So Much
And I Miss You More Than Anything Else In This World.

The Only Thing That Helps Me Get Through The Day Is..
Is The Fact That In 1 Week.
I Will Get The Chance To Look In Your Beatiful Eyes.
And See Your Sweet Smile.
If You Read This You Might Call Me Cheesy
Call Me Whatever You Want
This Is The Truth.

I Love You.
And I Hope You Have An Awesome Weekend.

-CheeseBall-

Sorry Does Not Describe How Sorry I Am

Hey.
Sherie?
I'm Sorry I Missed School Today..
My Brother Was Sick And I Had To Stay With Him.
I'm Really Sorry And I Miss You.
_______________________________________________________________
One More Thing.
If I Could Sing..
I Would Sing This Song But For Now..
I'll Just Write The Lyrics..

I Can Wait Forever-Simple Plan
You look so beautiful today
When you’re sitting there it’s hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn’t matter but you feel so far away
And I can’t lie, every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face
And I…Cuz I just can’t take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
And I can wait…I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you’re gone, it won’t stop bleeding
I can wait…I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It’s like every time I turn around, I see your face
The thing I miss the most is, waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man I wish that I could stay
And I can’t lie, every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face
And I…Cuz I just can’t take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
And I can wait…I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you’re gone it wont stop bleeding
I can wait…I can wait,I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess it’s just the price I gotta pay
When I come back home To feel your touch, Makes it better
Until that day there’s nothing else I can do
And I just can’t take it!

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
And I can wait…I can wait,I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you’re gone it won’t stop bleeding I can wait…I can wait,I can wait forever

Just A Little Risky.

This Week Has Not Been That Bad..
I Guess.
Trials Were Ok And Sh*t.

Just For The Record;
I Won't Kill Myself Knowing It Will Dissapoint You.
And I'm Not A Complete Phsyco-Path.
I'm Over Sensitive At Times But Not Crazy.
I Just Want You Guys To Know.
It's Not Nice To Judge People..
Before You Even Meet Them.
I Guess Its Ok If You Know Them For Quite A While..
But...
Yeah.
I Would Describe Myself As 'Misunderstood'

I Love Her.
Don't Get Me Wrong.
I Would Do Anything For Her.
But Some People Don't Understand That.
Sometimes Parents Should Let Their Kids Make Their On Desicions.
I'm Not Saying My Mom Is Bad.
She Is Just Over-Protective.
By The Way.
I Feel Earlier Today..
So My Elbow And Knee Are Kinda Fucked Up..
It Was A Pretty Funny Fall Actually..
And Pretty Painful As Well.

=)
That Was The Best I Could Come Up With..
The Smiley Face Not The Post.
I Guess Thats It.
GoodNight
I Miss Her.

-seb-

I Love You

Things Are Starting To Look Up.
I'm Talking To Her In School.
It's Akward..But Still
I Don't Mind Not Talking.
I Just Like Her Presence And..
Well I Love Her.
Right Now I Miss Her So Much.
I Want To Be With Her Every Second Of The Day.
To Make Sure She's Ok..
I Miss Her.
I Miss Our Strange Conversations.
I Just Want To See Her Smile.

-TheBoyWho'sInLove-

Love Is A Big Word.

I Only Like One Person.
Though,I've Been Trying To Denie It.
You See..Life Sucks For Me.
And I Don't Really Get What She Sees In Me.
That Is Even If She Likes Me.
I Miss Her And I'm Really Awkward Around Her..
So..
Yeah.
I'm A Mess,
I've Hardly Got Some Self-Asteem,
And I'm Screwed Up.

-seb-

This Ain't A Scene So Don't Make It One.

Hey..
To Anyone Reading This..
I'm 'Dead'
So Ignore Me If You See Me Because I Couldn't Care Less..
She Screwed Me Up Real Bad I Guess..
In Other Words:I'm A Mess And She's Worst.
I Realised She Does Not Care About Anyone But Herself..
Seb Is Screwed Up For Thinking He Likes Sherie..

-TheBoyWhoCutsHimselfForKicks-

S.S.L.S

I Still Do I Cant Help It.
The 'Not Allowed To Talk Part Makes It Worst'
...
Our Hearts Will Beat In Separate Rooms Like They Always Do..
This Time Mine Will Hurt.

-seb-

You Know It Always Just Be Me

I Wrote This To A Girl Whom I Thought I Loved
Here Is How It Goes..

___________________________________________

I Want To Hold Your Hand Everyday For The Rest Of Our Lives,
I Want To Hold You In My Arms And Never Let Go
And When I D0 Let Go It Would Be To Look In Your Eyes And See You Smile.
I've Never Felt This Way Before And I Love You,
Even If You Like Him More Than Me,
And Everytime I Do Something Wrong I Regret It And I'm Really Sorry.
I Don't Care What Anyone Thinks Of Us,
And I May Not Be Perfect But You Know How I Feel And I Hope You Feel The Same Way.
Sometimes I Get Really Shy And I Have To Try Really Hard To Find The Answers To Your Questions Because You're The One Person Who's Always On My Mind,
And I Dont Think Straight When I'm Around You.
I Love You Sherie Mae Janz.

____________________________________________

Shortly After That She Broke My Heart..

Lots Of Love,
-seb-

p.s:I Don't Know What To Feel Anymore..

I Give Up On Trying So My Heart Won't Break Again

I Cut My Hair..
So I'm A Little Less..
I Guess.

My Friend's Say She Likes Me
But..
Yeah..
I Met Another Girl
She's...
Cute..
So..I'm Technically Not Talking To Her..
I Guess.

Everytime I Do,
She Just Screws With My Feelings..
And...
Occasionaly It Hurts..
So I Vent This 'Pain'
Through Cuts..
I Call It Falling Down..
Because..
When You Fall Down
You Feel Weird..
Well...
I Do.

She Never Really Listened Or Cared..
I Hug My Bag..
To Keep All My Emotions Inside..
It Helps..
A Little..
My Bag Smells Like..
Well..
Me.
I'm More Or Less Already Dead..

-seb-

My Nose Is Blocked Because I'm Always High On Cocaine

Happy Is Just Another Word For Pretend..
In Short Happy=Pretend..
I Guess I'm Pretending..

I Met This Girl And Now I Can't Get Her Out Of My Mind
It's Weird Because The Last Time I Felt Like This I Got My Heart Broken
I'm Out Of Ideas On What To Blog About
Cuz She's All Thats On My Mind..
So I Guess I'll Blog About 'Roshan Sharma'

It's His Birthday Today So Happy Birthday
I Couldn't Make It To His Party Cuz Of
Some Family Bullshit..
I Bet He Is Having Fun..
He Should Because He Deserves It..

About Post's Title:
Part Of It Is True
The Nose Is Blocked Part..
And I'm Not Always High On Cocaine
Occasionly I Sniff Permanent Marker Ink..

I Give Up..
She's Still On My Mind..
I Gotta Go Take Care Of Some Family Bullshit
Roshan I'm Sorry And Happy Birthday..
I'm Out

-seb-

The Angel Of Saga's Basket Ball Court

I Went To Saga Today..
Obviously To Play Basketball..
Then I Saw This Really Cute Girl..
I Call Her Jaja..
We Talked for Awhile..
And I Walked Off Silently..
I Guess I Was Shy..
But She Was Really Cute..
She's A Lot Younger But Still Cute..
I Can't Even Describe How Cute She Was...
She Was Really Cute..
I Mean Really Cute..

-seb-
p.s.:She Is So Cute..I Think I Like Her..

School A.K.A My Favourite Band Is F.o.B

School...
I Hate School..
Well,I Dont Hate School..I Hate The People In School..
They're Not 'Real'
I Dont Like Them For Pretending To Be Someone Else
That includes me..
The Truth Is I Have A Really Low Self-Esteem and I'm Always Miserable
Not to Mention My Stupid Writing Skills And My Lame Jump Shots...

That's Who I really Am..
A Good For Nothing Loser..
And I'm So Sick & Tired Of the 'Pretends' In School...
School Starts Tomorow..I'm not Going To Pretend Anymore..
I Hate The Teachers Who Think They Have rights Over Us..
They Do But...They Abuse The rights Given To Them..

One Thing I Hate Most about School..
Is The Relationships You Get In..
These Relationships Tend To Break Hearts
And Screw Minds...More than Anything Else
They Make You Lose Focus..
I Mean..I Hate Responsibilities But Sometimes It's A Must..

I Don't Look Forward To School At All..
I Don't Look Forward To Seeing Her Mostly Because She Doesn't Notice Me and I Can't Breathe Around Her..
I Don't Look Forward To My 'Friends'

-seb-

Hold Me When I Don't Want To Be Disturbed

Hey...
I miss Sara and Sherie...
Sara's depressed and Sherie..
Well she does not talk to me=)
But it's ok..I'm used to being left out...

Holidays almost over..
Haven't started my Sej Folio yet..
Life's to short for responsibilities...
Speaking of life..
Mine sucks...
I get yelled at..at home
My friends ignore me(I'm not naming=))
And I'm lonely..

I try to be optimistic..
But it's hard when the world is against you..
It's funny..how my life turned out..
I don't want to try anymore...
So at school..don't talk to me..
Please?Leave me alone okay?

-seb-

God is Cruel-ish...

I've kinda got issues...
But life is'nt just bout me...
Everyone's got issues..
Just some more than others...
I'm the jealous type..
Real 'Nice'...

Sherie(sigh)
Sometimes I don't get her..
I mean she is real pretty...
And I like her alot..
But she confuses me all the time..
I don't hate her...
It's just sometimes I don't know what to say
Or think when I'm around her..
God she is pretty...
I miss her...

I miss her more than anything in the world...
I miss her eyes..
And her smile...
And..And..She smells like an angel...
(Not that I have come close to an angel)
But...yeah.

Hey God,
If you read blogs..
I want you to know...
Know that...
I love Sherie and I would do anything for her..
Thank You God,Thank You...

Yours Truly,
-theguywhosscreweduptomanytimes-

I Stab Myself With a Key Everyday to Make Sure I'm Not Invinsible

I'm A Dick...
Sherie I'm so Sorry...
I'm a Royal Screw-up...
Sherie if Your Reading This I
Want You to Know I'm Really Sorry...

This blog Goes Out to Sherie:

I'm really sorry...
I just Wanted to Express myself
and I Never Meant to Insult You in anyway
I Want To Talk To You but I don't Know
Where to start...
S.S.L.S

-seb-
p.s.Sherie I'm Really sorry...

Sherie + Zaki

...Fuck...

Hey Sherie?One question...
Do you enjoy seeing me depressed?
Hey Zaki?One question...
How about you?I thought you were my friend...
...Fuck...

I started cutting myself again...
And let me tell you something..
Sherie did not care..
What the Fuck?!

My Mom saw my cuts and freaked out..
Weird..
I'm so jealous and pissed off right now...
Zaki I Fucking hate you..you're the worst friend anyone could ask for...
I don't need this Bullshit...
One more thing...
Everytime I talk to Sherie she makes me feel stupid,worthless,dumb,crushed and HeartBroken...

I hate 'Them'
Especially when they're together...
It pisses me off...
If that DickWeed(Zaki)ever talks to me again I'll make sure his two front teeth comes out...
I lost my phone...so don't bother calling...


Life is Fucked Up
-seb-

Karma

Karma..i didnt believe in it until today..
i skipped class to finish up my geo project thingy...
and then was caught so we had to go down
to kh class..zaki came up with a lame excuse
but we still got away with it..

after class teacher held us back and told us to help her
find someone...then when we got back to class we
were forced to stand outside for half an hour
i mean wtf..this time we were helping teacher and
we still got in trouble..

thats karma for you..
fucked up..

-seb-

The Fight

i got into a fight today..it was not bad
because he hits like a b****
then sherie who's been ignoring me the whole day
started talking to me after 'The Fight'..
and guess what?
she said i was scary and then she cried
how pathetic..(i used a big word=))
i was pissed off naturally..
teacher told me to cool off so i went to the
toilet and broke the stupid mirror..
one more thing...John gave me a f***ing ulser
WTF?!
i hate life..
noone understands me
everyone hates me..
god hates me
i mean GOD..
how can you be hated by god
i have all my feelings locked up inside and i need to talk to someone
but noone wants to help me..
im sick
-Seb-

bona-fide..

sherie slapped me...on tuesday
i feel on my butt...on tuesday
my mom called me a miserable bastard...on tuesday
lets just say tuesday was the worst day of my life
i need help..
tasha told me to apologize...
i've been thinking bout it
but the loo told me sherie doesn't care bout me..

true...
i'm really sick and tired of being so f***ing worthless
sebluvssmj is true
smjhatesseb is truer
sebhateslife is the truest

i hate seeing her smile cuz it makes me weak
i hate it when she walks past me and the wind blows
she smells so sweet..
i dont want to say goodbye...not yet
sherie's to important for me to let go..
i wanna scream i love you from the top of my lungs...

-seb-

after-life...

everyone has got to move on sometime...
my best friend told me that..she also told
me that if you love someone,all you want
for them is to be happy...true...
i will keep loving her and thats all that makes
me happy...even if i'm not with you i just
want you to be happy...
Have you ever seen hell?In your dreams?
i have...my hell is a world without her...
sometimes i feel so left out and everyone
hates me and noone understands me..
but when i look into her eyes i know it's
going to be just fine...i hope the love
anyone gives you is enough to save you..
you nearly broke my heart...

being a little heart broken is part of being in love
thats a pain you're gonna have to live
through...i wish i could hug you one last
time...sherie,i love you and thats the only
thing i have ever been sure about...it's
not easy but it's worth it..
gay is not a synonym for shitty...it never will be
im missing you on a saturday morning...
i don't care bout anything else except you..
i wish i could have the carpal tunnel of love..
and i hope yule shoot your eye out(not)
=)
F.o.B rocks!!

its just nature misery loves me
-seb-

kicking the autumn leaves

what's wrong with me?can someone please help me understand?
am i not good enough for anyone?the world doesn't revolve around me.
i know that but if it did...just for one day..i would be the luckiest kid ever.
i've had my heartbroken.it still is.she said that i couldn't have another chance
when she said that my broken heart broke even more...
it kills me when she writes on his hand even if it's 3 little words.
if i could kill myself right now,i would because she's not worth it
and i'm not worth it.i love you and i guess that's not enough.
i love you sherie and thats all that matters to me just give me one more chance.


i love you,
i love you,
i love you,
i love you,
i love you,
i love you,
i love you,
sherie.


its just nature misery loves me
-seb-

sherie

sherie,

you're my addiction,
you're the one i wake up for,
you're the one who's always on my mind,
you're also the one who broke my heart,

and you can't blame me for being such a jerk
because it hurts.if only you could feel my pain.

no one understands me and no one likes me so i dont blame you
for hating me.i'am trying really hard to get over you
but i love you and you're the only thing that matters to me.

every minute of the day i miss you
i maybe sensetive but that doesn't change the way
i feel about you.i would give anything to hold you right now...

i wish i had a gun then it would so easy
and i think before i do 'it' would you remember me?
its just nature that misery loves me..

-seb-
F.o.B rocks!