Bullet Wounds Fixed With Bread And Cling Wrap, Tears In His Eyes, He Watched His Life Fall Apart

He Woke Up Today,

Feeling Dissapointed.

He Wasn't Hungry,

He Skipped Breakfast,

The Boy And His Mom Planned To See Their Dog,

Sparky,

Three Long Hours In The Car,

All The Boy Wanted To Do Was Be With The Girl,

Not Much Was Said Between The Boy And His Mom,

They Got To Sparky's New House,

He Was So Excited To See Them,

He Was Going Crazy,

He Jumped On All Of Them.

If You Had Looked Into Sparky's Eyes You Would Recognize His Happiness,

It Would Melt Your Heart,

It Sure Melted The Boy's Heart,

For The Short Time They Were There,

Everything Seemed To Make Sense,

The Boy Was Lost In Sparky's Presence

He Thought Of How He Had To Tell His Mom What Had Happened Yesterday,

He Knew She Would Be Dissapointed.

They Boy Said His Goodbyes,

And Left,

Not Knowing When He Would Get The Chance To See Sparky Again.

Another Three Long Hours Were Spent In The Car,

It Started To Rain And It Got Really Cold,

Now More Than Ever The Boy Wanted To Hold Her,

He Got Home Took A Shower,

Summing Up Enough Courage To Tell His Mom What Happened,

In The Beginning,

She Was OK,

The She Started Shouting At Him,

Calling The Girl All Sorts Of Names,

Calling The Boy Stupid,

She The Said The Boy Was A Huge Dissapointment,

And She Thanked God I Was Going,

She The Said That The Girl's Parents Could Sue.

She Ended Up Crying.

The Boy Locked Himself In His Room,

He Lied On His Bed,

Started To Cry Silently,

He Wanted To Slit His Wrist,

So Many Thoughts Filled His Head

A Tale Of Love And Betrayal

We All Know H0w The Story Begins,

The Boy Falls In Love With The Girl,

The Girl Breaks His Heart,

The Boy Has Lost His Will To Live,

He Gets Over It And Is Looking Forward To A New Year,

Then She Comes Back To Him,

All This Feelings Start Rushing Into Him,

He Does What He Knows How,

And Loves.

Things Start Picking Up Between The Boy And The Girl,

Soon Both Of Them Are In Love,

And When People Are In Love,

They Do What People In Love Would Do,

Even If It Breaks The Rules,

All The Boy Thinks About Is Her,

He Forgets School Completely,

He Doesn't Even Mind Not Doing Stuff People In Love Would Do,

He Just Wants To Be With Her.

Things Start To Change In The Boys Life,

He Has To Go To Another Country,

He Tries To Spend As Much Time As He Can With The Girl,

They're So In Love.

One Day,

One Perfect Day,

While The Two Weren't Noticing,

The Friends They Trusted,

Took Pictures Of Them,

And Showed It To The Teachers,

Now,

You Might Think Why

I Myself Am Not To Sure,

I'm Just Telling You The Story,

The Boy Promises The Girl It'll Be OK,

He Holds Her Hand And Promises Her It'll be OK,

She's Crying And Her Keeps Assuring Her.

About A Day Later,

The Boy Tells The Girl Something He Heard From One Of His Friends,

"We Might Get Suspended" He Says,

She Just Breaks Down Into Tears,

He Wants To Hold Her,

She Pushes Him Away,

He Goes To Class But He Is So Frustrated,

He Goes To See Her,

He Tries To Hold Her Hand,

She Pushes Him Away,

At This Point,
The Boy Is At A Lost,

He Doesn't Know What To Do,

He Wants To Talk To Her,

But He Knows She Would Probably Never Talk To Him Again.

They Both Get Called To The Office Later That Day,

Stuff Was Said,

And Eventhough The Boy Wanted To Be Blamed,

Being Blamed Wasn't Fun,

They Treated Him Like A Rapist,

A Terrorist,

They Accuse Him Of Things Without Proof,

They Accuse Them Of Things,

The Girl Wouldn't Even Look At The Boy,

At The Brink Of Tears The Boy Starts Walking To His Car,

He Sees The Girl With Another Guy,

Not Only Is He Being Treated Like A Terrorist,

She Goes And Talks To Another Guy,

His Fist Are Clenched,

He Gets The Urge To Punch Him So Bad,

He Looks Past Them,

He Knows If He Did What He Wanted,

He'd Be In More Trouble Then He Already Is.

2 Hours Later,

The Boy Goes Out To See His Brother,

They Have Some Whisky,

And The Boy Tells His Brother What Happened,

His Brother Suggested They Go See The Friends They Trusted,

They Gave Excuses,

And Ended Being Brave In Facebook.

Pathetic.

They Boy And His Brother Goes To See Their Little Brother,

The Found Their Little Brother's Sister Shisha,

They Tried It Out,

I Was The Boys First Time And He Was Ecstatic,

Smoking Shisha,

Seeing Friends For The Last Time,

It Was Good,
He Gets Home,

And Hangs Out With His Little Brother Abit,

His Brother Shows Up With A Friend,

They Hang Out For A While,

Then His Brother Suggested The Go Out,

So They Hope On To Their Motorcycles,

Go To A Shop,

Gets Some Ciggarettes And Start Smoking,

At First The Boy Didn't Want It,

Then He Thought,

Might As Well,

Since He Is Going In A Week And The Girl Isn't Talking To Him,

He Does His Stuff,

He Gets Home He Falls Asleep

July, A Month Of Dashed Hopes

I'm Sad,

I Thought Going For The Sake Of Making My Mom Being Happy Would Keep Me,

You Know,

But,

When She Put It That Way,

I Felt Like Bursting Into Tears,

I Mean,

I Didn't Choose To Go.

I Will Miss Her,

So Much,

Too Much,

I'll Miss Probably My Only Two Good Friends,

James Freer,

Roshan Sharma,

I'll Miss Sparky,

I'll Miss My Mom A Lot.

But Honestly,

I'll Just Be Sad,

It'll Probably Be Awesome,

But I'll Just Be Sad For A While.

I Don't Know How To Be,

I Mean,

Now That I Know,

It'll All Just Disappear,

Everything,

I Try To Be Positive About It,

But The Truth Is,

I'm Going,

I, Sebastian Pettersson, Am Probably Going To Spend A Long Time In Sweden,

And,

I'll Be Sad,

For The Most Part,

I'll Be Sad.

I'll Just Skip To The Good Part.

I Just Don't Know What To Say,
How Bout,
Do You Ever Get So Sad,
That You Feel Nothing In The Shower?
I Miss Her So Much,
And I Probably Am Going To Be Shipped To Sweden.
When Things Get Hard,
You Don't Leave,
You Don't Give Up,
You're Supposed To Be There When Someone Needs You,
You Can't Just Walk Away,
Then When Everything's Better You Come Back,
I'm Not Blaming Anybody,
People Get Scared,
Heck,
I'm Scared,
I Don't Want To Go To Sweden,
Not Now,
Not Yet.
All That Really Matters I Guess,
Is If That Two People Truely Love Each Other,
Things Will Work Itself Out,
I Hope.
I Just Want To Hold Her Now,
Tell Her Everything Is Going To Be Ok,
Tell Her I Love Her No Matter What,
Tell Her I'm Not Going To Leave Anytime Soon.
At Times Like These,
I Want To Take A Blade,
And Slit My Wrists,
Then It'll Be Over.

You're Only Young Once But It Goes On For Ages

So,

Cheer 2010.

It Was..

Well,

It Just Was.

The First Day Was,

The Bus Ride There Was OK,

Then We Were At The Stadium,

Then They Performed,

I Thought Our School Was Good,

They Screwed Up A Little,

It Was Pretty Mellow That Day,

The Bus Ride Home Was The Best,

Personally I Think.

Then On The Second Day,

We Had More Support,

We Screamed,

We Yelled,

Occasionally The Announcer Would Forget Us,

But We Were There.

Electric Was Really Good,

Really Good,

Like Amazing,

There Was Also D'Starz,

They Were Perfect,

And They Only Got 5th,

It's Fucking Rigged,

I Swear,

It's All Bout Popularity,

Cyrens Sucked,

And They Won.

I Would Say D'Starz Are Second To Electric.

The Bus Ride Home Was The Best Again.

Now I Miss Her.

I Wanna Go Where Everyone Feels The Same

It Was Still Early In School And I Was Waiting For Her,

I Decided To Walk Down,

I Saw Her Along The Way,

I Smiled,

We Both Turned To Each Other,

She Looked At Me And Said,

Fuck You,

I Didn't Know What To Do,

I Walked Away,

Then All Of A Sudden We Where In The Same Class,

She Was Sitting With Him,

His Hand Around Her,

I Was Just Watching Them,

Helplessly.

I Went Home,

And There She Was,

We Didn't Say Anything,

It Was Late,

I Lied On My Bed,

And She Lied With Me,

Holding Hands I Turned To Her,

We Kissed And Made Up.

Then I Woke Up,

I Looked At The Time,

It Was 4.30,

She Wasn't There Beside Me,

It Was Just A Dream,

A Nightmare.

I've Been So Sad Lately,

I Really Don't Like How I'm Feeling,

I Feel Like Crying When I'm Not With Her,

Or When I Leave Her,

Or Even When I Have To Hang Up.

No One Understands,

How Much I Love Her.

And I Just Hate Not Being With Here.

Harlequin Girls

If You Really Listen,

Then You'll Understand,

Like Music,

Panic! At The Disco.

All Their Songs Are Like Stories Waiting To Be Told To The World.

Is It Still Me That Makes You Sweat?

Am I Who You Think About In Bed?

When The Lights Are Dim And Your Hands Are Shaking As Your Sliding Off Your Dress,

Then Think Of What You Did And I Hope To God It Was Worth It.

When The Lights Are Dim And Your Heart Is Racing As Your Fingers Touch His Skin.

I've Got More Wit, A Better Kiss, Hotter Touch, A Better Fuck

Than Any Boy You'll Ever Meet,

Sweetie You Had Me,

Girl I Was It,

Look Past The Sweat,

A Better Love Deserving Of Exchanging Body Heat In The Passenger Seat.

Just Fucking Genius,

Panic! At The Disco Is Only Second The Fall Out Boy,

Fall Out Boy's Lyrics Are Really Metaphorical.

This Has Been Said So Many Times That I'm Not Sure If It Matters,

But It Must Be Said Again That All Us Boys Are Just Screaming,

Into Microphones For Attention,

Because Were Just So Bored.

I Mean What Does This Even Mean?

Genius Only Comes Along In Storms Of Fabled Foreign Tongues, I'm No Genius

You Know The Feeling You Get When You're Un-Appreciated?

Yeah.

I Don't Need Hugs Or Kisses,

A 'Thank You' Would Be Enough,

Maybe Something Like,

Thank You For Being Arguably The Best Guy In The World To Stay With Me When I'm Not Feeling Well To Make Sure I'm OK,

Or Thank You For Walking All That Way To Get Me Stuff Cause I'm Sick,

*Sigh*

The Things We Do For The People We Love.

I Mean,

You Don't Even Have To Say It,

I Would Understand A 'Thank You' Hug,

But No,

All I Got Today Was,

A 'I'm In A Rush Cause My Dad Is Here And I Have To Give My Best Guy Friend Whom You Hate A Ride Home Cause My Dad Likes Him' Hug.

I Swear,

It Can't Get Any Better.

It's Like One Of Those Indian Movies,

Where They Always Arrange Marriages For Their Daughters Because The Dads Like That Guy When There's Another Guy Whom The Dad Hates But Possibly The Daughters Love.

I'm Really Sad Now.

Have You Ever Had A Friend Who Is Nice To Everyone Else But Is The Biggest Asshole In The World To You?

Everyone Likes Him/Her And They Just Don't Get Why You Don't,

For Fucks Sake,

He/Her Is Just An Asshole,

Thats Just It.

Tonight,

I'm Gonna Try Not To Fall Asleep,

I'm Just Going To Lie In My Un-Comfortable Bed And Just Be,

I'm Going To Think About You Until I Finally Doze Off.

We Used To Ration Kisses, Now We Ration Hugs

So Um,

Lately,

I've Been Quoting Lyrics,

Mainly Cause They're Emo And I Have Run Out Of Ideas,

So,

I'm Just Going To,

You Know,

Not Quote.

According To Oprah,

If You Lie A Lot,

You Will End Up To Be A Psychopathic Killer,

And Um,

My Mom Watches Oprah,

So,

You Put Both Things Together,

And Apparently I Am A Psychopathic Killer.

But,

Lying.

See I Lie Because I Know For A Fact That She Wouldn't Like The Truth,

No One Likes The Truth,

So Most Of The Time I Lie,

Don't Get Me Wrong,

Being Truthful Once In A While Pays Off,

But Like I Said

Most Of The Time Lying Is Better.

I'm Not Saying It's Good,

I'm Just Saying It's You Know,

Preferred.

And I Made A Really Cool Caricature Of Fall Out Boy I Think Last Month,

And I'm Probably Going To Upload It,

Here,

But,

I'm Not Promising.

Caricature-To Imitate In An Exaggerated Manner.

I'll Be Sure To Compliment Him When I'm Hitting His Face

She Says She Loves Me,

But She Comes And Goes When She Pleases.

She Claims She Loves Me,

But She Cuts Me Into Pieces,

When I'm Sewed Up,

Here Comes Another Papercut,

But I Love Her.

I Can't Believe I Let Her Run All Over Me,

But All I Think Is,

When She's Here And Holding Me.

I Can't Complain,

I Kinda Like The Pain.

I Love Her.