Bear In Mind That This Is Where Things Go Spectacularly Wrong

'What's Wrong'

Two Words I Have Been Asking Myself.

I Took A Long Walk Home,

It Was Good,

I Thought Of,

Nothing.

It Felt Good To Feel Nothing,

To Just Walk.

Then I Got Home,

Not So Alien Emotions Started Flooding In,

Once Again I Was Drowning In My Thoughts,

With My Novel Read,

I Had Nothing To Distract Me From This Hell,

My Brother Forced Me To Go CC,

I Wasn't Up For It,

Heck I Was Feeling So Lifeless,

My Pee Was Limp.

I Got Home For The Second Time,

Went To Get Some Water,

The Yelling Had Already Begun,

Great I Thought To Myself,

I Took A Shower,

A Warm One,

I Didn't Need A Cold Shower Since The World Was Treating Me Like This.

I Started Listening To The Killers,

I Realised Some Of Their Lyrics Are Emo,

Gives Me A Run For My Money.

Sat In My Bed For About Two Seconds,

Seconds Which Felt Like Hours,

Just Thinking About What Would Happen If I Just Dropped Dead.

I Took The First Thing I Saw,

A Blade,

I Slit My Wrist.

OK,

I Didn't,

Felt Like It Though.

The 'Who' Is Not Important, It's The 'What' You Should Be Worried About

This Is My Blog,

The Only Place I Can Say Anything,

So,

It Might Not Be True But I Wouldn't Do Anything To Change It,

I Like This Blog,

It's The Only Friend I Have Who Would Listen To Me And Then Help Me Share It With People Who Care,

Which Isn't That Much.

Then There's People Who Read It Just To Pick On Me Or Others,

Or To Tell Me That I Should Do Something Else.

I Know I'm Not Making Any Sense But That Just All I Have To Say.

The Whole Day I Have Been Trying To Be Not Emo,

Then I Come Home,

Then,

Well,

If You Have Been Reading You Would Understand.

I Could Tell You I Feel Like Going For A Jog And Then Getting Knocked,

Or That I Want To Fall Asleep And Never Wake Up,

Or Maybe Jump Off A Building,

OR I Could Tell You I Finished Reading My Novel And That It Was The Only Thing Worth Living For,

Just A Little Fantasy To Take Me Away From This Paradise.

I Really Need To Cut Myself,

Like Until I Bleed To Death.

I Don't Want To Go To School Ever Again,

What's The Point Of Going Somewhere Nobody Wants You,

What's The Point Of Going Somewhere Without Friends.

*Sigh*

If I Had A Choice I Would Kill Myself,

And I'm Not Just Saying That,

I Honestly Want To Kill Myself.

Fuck Me,

I'm So Depressed,

It's Not Even A Big Deal.

Now I'm Just Going To Write A Few Lines From One Of The Best Songs Ever Produced,

I'm Head Over Heels For Someone I

That I Can't Really Deal With

I Want To Block Her Out My Mind

But I Really Can't Do It

I Tell Myself It's The Last Time

Imma Let Her Do This To Me

Whenever We Do Spend Time

I Realize That I Can't Get Enough Of You

And Another Verse,

Girl, Just Look What You've Done

How Could You Do This To Me?

I Gotta Put My Foot Down,

I Can't Let You Do This To Me

I Can't Forget Those Good Ol'times

And All The Things You've Been Doing To Me

Yeah..

Say What You Want.

It's Rude To Be Alive When No One Wants You.

I Just Finished Watching Shrek,

The First One.

And I Think It's Probably The Best One.

Teaches A Lot Of Values,

Like Never Judge A Book By It's Cover And Other Stuff.

And It Also Made Me Sad,

I Mean,

Here's This Nice Guy,

Sure He Is Weird And Different,

That Doesn't Mean He Has To Be Treated That Way,

He Is Misunderstood.

Yeah,

I'm Still Depressed By The Way.

Tommorow For Sure,

I'm Just Going To Read A Novel I Just Bought,

By Derek Landy.

I'm Probably The Only Guy In BSD Who Reads His Books.

He Is Epic I Swear,

I'm Reading Skulduggery Pleasant,

I Think Thats How It's Spelt.

It's A Really Cool Book.

Oh And,

Did You Also Know That,

All Of Panic! At The Disco's Song Titles From A Fever You Can't Sweat Out Are Adapted From Lines In Books.

I Love My Life.

I Woke Up Hungry As Hell,

And The Person I'm Probably The Nicest Too Decided That I Wasn't Worth Food.

So,

I Went To My Room And Started Reading A Book,

Finished It About And Hour And A Half Later And Realised Passing Time Isn't Going to Work,

I Took A Shower,

Was About to Go Get Some Food,

Then She Starts Telling Me,

That She Realised I'm A Profesional Liar,

She Then Proceeded With Telling Me How Much I Hated Education When Theres An Exam,

I Will Study My Stupid Brains Out And That Shes Not Going To Support Me After SPM,

She Also Wished Me Luck In Whatever Career I Wish To Pursue.

Great Advice.

So Then I Went Out With Bondy,

Stayed At His House For A Bit,

Watched England Fail Against Algeria I Think,

Then Started Walking To Get Some Food,

We Went To Kedai Kopi Matahari And I Got Really Happy Cause I Saw My 7up Revive Poster There,

I Thought Maybe This Day Isn't So Bad.

I Was Too Happy To Eat So We Decide To Go To CC,

I Went On Facebook,

Saw My Girl Online,

And I Wanted To Talk To Her,

I Said Hey,

And She Was Pissed.

Why?

Because I Never Bring My Phone With Me.

What?

I Just Never Bring My Phone Out,

Happy?

I Swear To God.

After A While,

I Told Her About My Crappy Day,

And Apparently,

I Didn't Tell Her.

I Explained In Brief Detail And,

I Didn't Tell Her.

I Got Home,

And Suddenly She Sends Me A Text All Nice And Shit,

Then I'm Like,

Just A Minute Ago You Hate Me,

Then Now You're All Nice,

Perfect.

Naturally I Get Pissed.

And I'm The Ass.

See That Right There?

The Holidays Have Been Almost Perfect,

Then Today Comes A Fucks It All Up.

So,

I Decided To Sleep In Cause I Haven't Been Sleeping Well Right,

Then I Woke Up At 1.30 Only To Get Nagged About Sleeping Early.

So The Day Continues Not Getting Any Better,

Nagged And Scolding,

Thats All I Get,

Then It Carries On The Whole Day,

Since I Didn't Get To Hang Out With My Friend,

We Went Out.

When I Got Back,

I Heated Some Food Out For Me And My Mom.

The I Wanted To Use The Computer,

I Sat Down,

The Mouse Fell,

It Fucking Fell,

I Didn't Touch The Stupid Mouse,

My Mom Starts Screaming At Me,

It Works And I Didn't Touch It But Its My Fault.

Feeling Pretty Good About What She Had Done She Went To Sleep,

5 Minutes Later My Brother Comes Down And He Starts Scolding Me,

Why?

Cause The Batteries On The Table Started Falling And Its My Fault,

I Start Scolding Him Back And Guess Who Came To The Rescue,

My Wonderful Mom.

She Comes Out Yelling 'Shut Up Sebastian, Shut Up. You Spoil Everything I Can't Admit It's Your Fault, You Lier, You Bastard'

Then I'm Like Its Not Even Spoilt.

She Didn't Care.

The Story Of My Stupid Life.

Fuck It.

I Was Born Second Place

Today,

I Am Going To Make This Post As Relevant As I Can To Its Title.

So,

The Guide To Being The Perfect Bestfriend.

NUMBER 1

First Of All,

Always Treat Your Friend Like Shit,

This Is What Most People Do.

If You Keep This Up For A Certain Amount Of Time,

The Person You're Trying To Be-Friend WILL Like You.

NUMBER 2

Always Feel Insecure.

Now,

This Is A Fact,

Out Of Bestfriends,

There Is Always A Better One,

So You're Job Is To Try To Do Everything You Can To Be Better Than Him/Her.

You Could Go For The Same Crush,

Or You Could Hang Out With Different People And Not Include Your 'Bestfriend'

It Really Helps.

NUMBER 3

This Isn't Really A Tip,

A Guy Knows When His Friend Likes A Girl,

He Just Knows,

And His Friend Might Seem Nice,

But Keep This In Mind,

Noone Is Nice.

Noone.

Not Me,

Not Barack Obama,

Not Angelina Jolie,

Noone.

So..

There You Have It,

2 Tips You Need To Be Known As Someones Best Friend.