Lets Relapse And I'll Be Your Only Regret

Some Times I Look At Myself,

Think Of Everything I Ever Did,

Everyone I've Ever Dissapointed

And

I Just Feel Like Crying

But I Just Can't

I Mean

I Feel Sad And Torned Up Inside,

My Throat Chokes Up And My Nose Feels Weird,

My Eyes Water,

And Then,

That's Just It,

No Tears.

Do You Know How Bad That Feels?

The Worst Part Is,

No One Gets Me,

And I Can't Tell Anyone,

Cause One Way Or Another They Just Drift Away,

It Could Be Family Or Even Just Friends,

But They Drift,

And It's Always My Fault,

Cause I Constantly Go Agaisnt What I Say,

Time And Time Again.

I Realise I Hurt People But My Conscience Is Just So Worn Out He Doesn't Even Care Until It's Too Late.

I Try To Be A Good Son,

But I Fail Miserably,

I Dissapoint My Mom Cause Nothing I Do Is Ever Good Enough.

I Try To Be A Good Brother,

I Try My Best But I'm Just An Asshole Most Of The Time.

I Don't Even Have The Guts To Apologize For All This Bullshit.

I Try To Be A Good Friend,

I Hear My Friends Out,

Then I Get Too Close And When I Actually Start To Feel Stuff,

I End Up Doing Something Stupid To Push Them Away.

I Hate My Life Cause I'm Sebastian Pettersson.

I'm Just Never Good Enough.

I'll Go About Pretending I'm Happy,

Putting On My Perfect Smile,

Just For Sakes

But It Kills Me Inside.

Everyday I Long For This Pain To Atleast Slowly Fade But It Doesn't.

I Go To Bed Everything Just Praying I Don't Wake Up And Have To Go Through This Nightmare.

I'll Be Fine.