He Seems Alive.

I'm Sad And Pissed Off,

And I Don't Know What It Is,

I'm Just So Damn Blue.

I Just Feel Like Cutting My Eyeballs,

So That I Won't Have To See The Evil And The Unjustice In This World.

I Don't Even Know Why I'm Feeling Like This,

I'm In No Mood To Think,

There's So Much In My Head,

I Can't Filter Them,

It's Just A Big Jumble Of Emotion.

And My Heart,

That's The Worst.

It's Not Talking To Me,

I Don't Know What He Wants,

He Is So Sore,

And Always In Constant Pain.

I Can't Sleep,

I Just Toss And Turn,

I Wake Up In Cold Sweat,

Confused,

Thinking To Myself,

Why Doesn't It Ever End,

I Just Want To Go,

Just Peacefully Go.

I Want To Wake Up And Know That,

I'm Somewhere Everyone Feels The Same,

Glad.

Wake Up And Feel Awesome

I'm Really Confused And Pissed Off,

It's Either One Or The Other.

Confused Cause,

I Just Don't Know What I'm Doing Anymore,

And Being Lead On Really Doesn't Help,

The Fact That I Don't Know How To Express How I Feel Does Alot To Add To My Confusion.

Ok,

To Get Shit Straight,

I Am Not Gay Or Anything,

My Facebook Has Been Constantly Raped,

So Yeah.
Really Pissed Off Cause,

Nothing Ever Goes My Way,

No One Really Listens

And My Brother Just Does Everything He Can To Ruin My Life.

I Mean Let Me Be,

Let Me Do What I Want.

Enough Of That.

My Friend Got Me Thinking,

Is What I Doing Right?

Is It Worth It?

It Seems Like Nothing Is Going My Way,

So Yeah

I Should Chill.

This World Is Too Big For Me And Me Trying To Be On Top Is Not A Good Idea,

Made Up My Mind,

I Will Chill.

Live Life With Complete Chill,

Remember?

I'll Be Fine *Not*

Yeah,

I Just Watched An Episode Of Vampire Diaries

And It's So Sad,

Damon,

The Bad Ass Nice Guy,

Loves Katherine, This Foxy Vampire,

But She Doesn't Love Him Back, She Loves Stefan,

So He Gets Depressed And Upset,

And He Tries Stuff Out With Elena, Human Look Alike Of Katherine

And She Says She Loves Stefan.

I Mean,

Two Heartbreaks In One Night,

A Man Can Only Take So Much.

But I Mean,

I Admire Him,

He Always Acts Cool,

He Acts As If Nothing Phases Him,

Nothing Hurts Him,

And He Just Goes On Living Life,

People Hate Him,

He Doesn't Give A Shit.

I Mean,

On One Hand,

You Can Really Do Whatever You Want,

On The Other,

You Can't Hold On To Anyone

And That's Not Very Fun Sometimes,

Sometimes You Just Need To Be Loved,

To Feel Loved.

It's Frustrating Sometimes,

Going Home,

Knowing There's Nothing To Look Forward To But Going Out The Next Day,

Knowing There's No One At Home Waiting For You,

Wanting You.

The World Is Not A Nice Place,

It's Only Nice If You Make It.

Lets Relapse And I'll Be Your Only Regret

Some Times I Look At Myself,

Think Of Everything I Ever Did,

Everyone I've Ever Dissapointed

And

I Just Feel Like Crying

But I Just Can't

I Mean

I Feel Sad And Torned Up Inside,

My Throat Chokes Up And My Nose Feels Weird,

My Eyes Water,

And Then,

That's Just It,

No Tears.

Do You Know How Bad That Feels?

The Worst Part Is,

No One Gets Me,

And I Can't Tell Anyone,

Cause One Way Or Another They Just Drift Away,

It Could Be Family Or Even Just Friends,

But They Drift,

And It's Always My Fault,

Cause I Constantly Go Agaisnt What I Say,

Time And Time Again.

I Realise I Hurt People But My Conscience Is Just So Worn Out He Doesn't Even Care Until It's Too Late.

I Try To Be A Good Son,

But I Fail Miserably,

I Dissapoint My Mom Cause Nothing I Do Is Ever Good Enough.

I Try To Be A Good Brother,

I Try My Best But I'm Just An Asshole Most Of The Time.

I Don't Even Have The Guts To Apologize For All This Bullshit.

I Try To Be A Good Friend,

I Hear My Friends Out,

Then I Get Too Close And When I Actually Start To Feel Stuff,

I End Up Doing Something Stupid To Push Them Away.

I Hate My Life Cause I'm Sebastian Pettersson.

I'm Just Never Good Enough.

I'll Go About Pretending I'm Happy,

Putting On My Perfect Smile,

Just For Sakes

But It Kills Me Inside.

Everyday I Long For This Pain To Atleast Slowly Fade But It Doesn't.

I Go To Bed Everything Just Praying I Don't Wake Up And Have To Go Through This Nightmare.

I'll Be Fine.

I Will Burn Myself If I Had A Blowtorch

I'm So Pissed Right Now,

With My Brother And Just At Life Mainly.

I Just Want To Scream,

And Just Break Something,

And Just Scream Until My Stupid Lungs Give Out.

I Swear To God,

Why?

How Could Does Be Fair,

I Feel Like Burning Myself,

You Know,

But I Can't,

Cause That Would Just Mean,

I'm Afraid,

And I'm Not,

I'm A Bastard.

I Need To Drink.

And Scream.

I Want To Get High.

I Miss Bondy And Sparky And Fish.

I'm Just So Pissed,
And I Snap So Easily,

I Swear,

I Need To Manage My Stupid Anger.

French Toast For Breakfast

I'm Listening To Kings And Queens-Thirty Seconds To Mars

It's Nice How Its Just Playing,

You Know.

I'm Getting Really Frustrated,

It's Really Not Fun When You Have To Consider Others,

I'm Getting Slightly Pissed Off,

I Mean,

Its Really Not Fair

Then Again,

Life Isn't Fair,

But Don't I Atleast You Know,

Get A Shot?

I Swear To God.