It's All A Game Of This And That

Why Does Every Moment Have To Be So Hard?

I'm Just Trying To Live, To Have Fun

And That's Wrong?

Cause I Think I Deserve It,

I've Been Through Shit And I Can't Have Fun?

I Mean

Why Does Everyone Think They Control My Life,

They Dictate What I Have To Do To Live And When I Don't Do As They Want They Just Cut Me Off.

It Fucking Hurts,

Knowing That No One Really Gives A Shit Anymore,

Do I Look Like Trash?

Am I That Un-Important?

As Much As Anyone Would Like To Think,

I Have A Heart,

I Have Feelings,

They Hurt.

And I Can't Do Anything About It Cause I Don't Know What To Do,

I Just Don't,

No One Is Helping,

No One Supports Me,

And I'm Just Sad.

You Said You Wouldn't Care If I Was With Another Girl,

You Said You Wouldn't Mind,

Then When I Am With Another Girl,

Its Wrong?

Help Me Understand.

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This Is Meant For Two People And Two People Only,

Two People Whom I Thought Cared,

Two People Who Was Supposed To Be There For Me.

In A Matter Of Three Weeks, I've Had Tons Of Older Girls Flirt With Me (I'm Just That Good Looking)

A Band Of Wise People Once Said,

"The Truth Hurts Worst Than Anything I Could Bring Myself To Do, To You"

You Could Look At This Line From So Many Different Points Of Views, Perspectives If You Will,

But,

Yeah,

That's Pretty Much It,

I Mean,

It Has Loads Of Meanings To It,

Some We Probably Would'nt Have Thought Of In A Million Years,

Basically,

The Truth Hurts.

What I'm Trying To Get At Here Is That,

We Humans Judge,

Thats What We Do,

Even If We Try Not To We Still Do,

And In Some Ways,

When You Don't Like A Person,

It's Probably Cause You've Acted Like Him/Her

That Not Always The Case But

You Get My Point

Yeah

Right Now,

Everyone Single One Of Us Has To Forgive,

Cause Thats The Only Way Any Of Us Is Gonna Move On,

Sure

You Could Sulk, Get Depressed, Swear At The One Person You Hate,

Where Does That Get You?

What Does That Do For You?

And If You Do That,

You Sink As Low As The Person You Dislike,

I Realised That And Now,

You Could Say,

I'm In A State Of Hippy-ness

I'm Pretty Much Just Chill About Everything Now,

You Can't Change The Past,

So

Just Shape The Future.

So Yeah,

I Probably Wrote This Better Then You Guys Ever Felt It And I'm Sorry

Do You Remember The Way I Held You Hand?

Where Do I Start?

"The Only Thing In Life Which Is Constant Is Change"

Yeah

Everything Changes,

The Only Way Any Of Us Is Going To Live Is By Moving Forward,

Sure It Can Be Hard,

You'll Miss Your Parents,

Your Friends.

But

Theres Really Nothing Much You Can Do

Just Keep Living,

Sometimes Its For The Best,

Like

Better Schools

Or Better Lifestyle

I Can Say

Its Really Much Nicer Here,

Like Right Now

You Can Here Music Out In The Streets

You Can See People Dancing,

Having Fun,

Even Though It's Freezing

So Yeah

At First

It Will Be Hard,

But Seasons Change,

From Winter,

It Changes To Spring

Then Summer

It Will Get Better,

Just Chill

You Probably Wont

Cause You Think You Cooler Than Me

Allah Is The Arabic Word For God, I Think If That Isn't Allowed To Be Said By Non-Muslims, We Might As Ban The Word God Being Said In Other Languages

For One,
I'm Keeping On Hold What I Should Be Doing,

For Hope.

I Just Don't Get It,

You Say You Don't Want Anymore Right,

Then I'm Nicely Talking With My Friend

Then You Butt In?

Seriously

What The Fuck?

And Being The Pussies These People Are,

They're Going To Show All These To Teachers,

Who're Not Going To Listen To Me,

So,

What's The Point?

And

I Really Hope You People Are Proud Of Yourselves,

There's Nothing Else I Can Say,

You Seriously Think That By Doing What You Did Things Won't Result In Total Melancholy?

I Just Don't Get It,

I Mean,

You Knew I Was Leaving,

Let Me Leave In Peace,

Maybe What I Did Was Wrong In Your's And Everyone Elses Eyes,

But To Me,

It Was,

It Was Like Nothing I Can Describe,

And I Don't Regret It For A Second

So,

Say What You Can Say,

To Whoever You Want To Say It To,

And Let Me Handle This On My Own,

Cause,

Obviously,

Anyone Who Tries To Help,

You Lie To The Teachers And Say Whatever Would Make Them Believe,

Yeah,

Show This Post To Them I Dare You,

Tell Them What I'm Saying Is The Truth,

Cause For The Most Part,

It Is.

I'm Alone In This

My Friends Aren't Allowed To Back Me Up

And Yeah Thats Pretty Much It,

I Think It's Quite Unfair That,

Because You're Malay And When Your Friends Meddle Its OK,

But When My Friends Stand Up For Me,

It's Wrong.

One Day,

When I'm All Grown Up,

I'll Write A Book,

About Every Single Shit That Has Happened To Me

And There'll Be One Whole Chapter Bout This,

And I Hope You Get Yourself A Copy To Realize What You Put Everyone Through

Even If It Was My Fault

Life Is Like Down Syndrome Kids Making New Friends

Should We Be Blamed For The Decisions We Make And The Mistakes That Follow?

I Honestly Think

We Should Learn By Ourselves,

I Mean

Helping Would Mean You Just Want To Spoil Someone

And

Yeah.

I Made Decisions With Someone

And Technically

We Didn't Do Anything Wrong

It's Only A Crime If I Get Caught

And As Long As I Didn't Get Caught

It Was Good,

It Was Perfect,

My Life Was Perfect,

Now,

Everyone In School Is Against Me

Even Her,

I Mean

If You Love Someone

You Don't Go And Support The Enemy

You Stay By The One You Love

And Get In Trouble Together

I'm Just Sad, Angry And Dissapointed

I Just Don't Know What To Say Anymore

I Don't Know What To Think.

And If Everyone Thought That I Was Bad When I Was With You,

I'll Prove Them Wrong,

I Have Been Shisha-ing

And Other Stuff

Other Good Stuff.

Damn

Can't Wait For Tommorow,

It's Going To Be So Epic

Yeah

Thats Bout It

Bullet Wounds Fixed With Bread And Cling Wrap, Tears In His Eyes, He Watched His Life Fall Apart

He Woke Up Today,

Feeling Dissapointed.

He Wasn't Hungry,

He Skipped Breakfast,

The Boy And His Mom Planned To See Their Dog,

Sparky,

Three Long Hours In The Car,

All The Boy Wanted To Do Was Be With The Girl,

Not Much Was Said Between The Boy And His Mom,

They Got To Sparky's New House,

He Was So Excited To See Them,

He Was Going Crazy,

He Jumped On All Of Them.

If You Had Looked Into Sparky's Eyes You Would Recognize His Happiness,

It Would Melt Your Heart,

It Sure Melted The Boy's Heart,

For The Short Time They Were There,

Everything Seemed To Make Sense,

The Boy Was Lost In Sparky's Presence

He Thought Of How He Had To Tell His Mom What Had Happened Yesterday,

He Knew She Would Be Dissapointed.

They Boy Said His Goodbyes,

And Left,

Not Knowing When He Would Get The Chance To See Sparky Again.

Another Three Long Hours Were Spent In The Car,

It Started To Rain And It Got Really Cold,

Now More Than Ever The Boy Wanted To Hold Her,

He Got Home Took A Shower,

Summing Up Enough Courage To Tell His Mom What Happened,

In The Beginning,

She Was OK,

The She Started Shouting At Him,

Calling The Girl All Sorts Of Names,

Calling The Boy Stupid,

She The Said The Boy Was A Huge Dissapointment,

And She Thanked God I Was Going,

She The Said That The Girl's Parents Could Sue.

She Ended Up Crying.

The Boy Locked Himself In His Room,

He Lied On His Bed,

Started To Cry Silently,

He Wanted To Slit His Wrist,

So Many Thoughts Filled His Head

A Tale Of Love And Betrayal

We All Know H0w The Story Begins,

The Boy Falls In Love With The Girl,

The Girl Breaks His Heart,

The Boy Has Lost His Will To Live,

He Gets Over It And Is Looking Forward To A New Year,

Then She Comes Back To Him,

All This Feelings Start Rushing Into Him,

He Does What He Knows How,

And Loves.

Things Start Picking Up Between The Boy And The Girl,

Soon Both Of Them Are In Love,

And When People Are In Love,

They Do What People In Love Would Do,

Even If It Breaks The Rules,

All The Boy Thinks About Is Her,

He Forgets School Completely,

He Doesn't Even Mind Not Doing Stuff People In Love Would Do,

He Just Wants To Be With Her.

Things Start To Change In The Boys Life,

He Has To Go To Another Country,

He Tries To Spend As Much Time As He Can With The Girl,

They're So In Love.

One Day,

One Perfect Day,

While The Two Weren't Noticing,

The Friends They Trusted,

Took Pictures Of Them,

And Showed It To The Teachers,

Now,

You Might Think Why

I Myself Am Not To Sure,

I'm Just Telling You The Story,

The Boy Promises The Girl It'll Be OK,

He Holds Her Hand And Promises Her It'll be OK,

She's Crying And Her Keeps Assuring Her.

About A Day Later,

The Boy Tells The Girl Something He Heard From One Of His Friends,

"We Might Get Suspended" He Says,

She Just Breaks Down Into Tears,

He Wants To Hold Her,

She Pushes Him Away,

He Goes To Class But He Is So Frustrated,

He Goes To See Her,

He Tries To Hold Her Hand,

She Pushes Him Away,

At This Point,
The Boy Is At A Lost,

He Doesn't Know What To Do,

He Wants To Talk To Her,

But He Knows She Would Probably Never Talk To Him Again.

They Both Get Called To The Office Later That Day,

Stuff Was Said,

And Eventhough The Boy Wanted To Be Blamed,

Being Blamed Wasn't Fun,

They Treated Him Like A Rapist,

A Terrorist,

They Accuse Him Of Things Without Proof,

They Accuse Them Of Things,

The Girl Wouldn't Even Look At The Boy,

At The Brink Of Tears The Boy Starts Walking To His Car,

He Sees The Girl With Another Guy,

Not Only Is He Being Treated Like A Terrorist,

She Goes And Talks To Another Guy,

His Fist Are Clenched,

He Gets The Urge To Punch Him So Bad,

He Looks Past Them,

He Knows If He Did What He Wanted,

He'd Be In More Trouble Then He Already Is.

2 Hours Later,

The Boy Goes Out To See His Brother,

They Have Some Whisky,

And The Boy Tells His Brother What Happened,

His Brother Suggested They Go See The Friends They Trusted,

They Gave Excuses,

And Ended Being Brave In Facebook.

Pathetic.

They Boy And His Brother Goes To See Their Little Brother,

The Found Their Little Brother's Sister Shisha,

They Tried It Out,

I Was The Boys First Time And He Was Ecstatic,

Smoking Shisha,

Seeing Friends For The Last Time,

It Was Good,
He Gets Home,

And Hangs Out With His Little Brother Abit,

His Brother Shows Up With A Friend,

They Hang Out For A While,

Then His Brother Suggested The Go Out,

So They Hope On To Their Motorcycles,

Go To A Shop,

Gets Some Ciggarettes And Start Smoking,

At First The Boy Didn't Want It,

Then He Thought,

Might As Well,

Since He Is Going In A Week And The Girl Isn't Talking To Him,

He Does His Stuff,

He Gets Home He Falls Asleep