Karma

Karma..i didnt believe in it until today..
i skipped class to finish up my geo project thingy...
and then was caught so we had to go down
to kh class..zaki came up with a lame excuse
but we still got away with it..

after class teacher held us back and told us to help her
find someone...then when we got back to class we
were forced to stand outside for half an hour
i mean wtf..this time we were helping teacher and
we still got in trouble..

thats karma for you..
fucked up..

-seb-

The Fight

i got into a fight today..it was not bad
because he hits like a b****
then sherie who's been ignoring me the whole day
started talking to me after 'The Fight'..
and guess what?
she said i was scary and then she cried
how pathetic..(i used a big word=))
i was pissed off naturally..
teacher told me to cool off so i went to the
toilet and broke the stupid mirror..
one more thing...John gave me a f***ing ulser
WTF?!
i hate life..
noone understands me
everyone hates me..
god hates me
i mean GOD..
how can you be hated by god
i have all my feelings locked up inside and i need to talk to someone
but noone wants to help me..
im sick
-Seb-

bona-fide..

sherie slapped me...on tuesday
i feel on my butt...on tuesday
my mom called me a miserable bastard...on tuesday
lets just say tuesday was the worst day of my life
i need help..
tasha told me to apologize...
i've been thinking bout it
but the loo told me sherie doesn't care bout me..

true...
i'm really sick and tired of being so f***ing worthless
sebluvssmj is true
smjhatesseb is truer
sebhateslife is the truest

i hate seeing her smile cuz it makes me weak
i hate it when she walks past me and the wind blows
she smells so sweet..
i dont want to say goodbye...not yet
sherie's to important for me to let go..
i wanna scream i love you from the top of my lungs...

-seb-

after-life...

everyone has got to move on sometime...
my best friend told me that..she also told
me that if you love someone,all you want
for them is to be happy...true...
i will keep loving her and thats all that makes
me happy...even if i'm not with you i just
want you to be happy...
Have you ever seen hell?In your dreams?
i have...my hell is a world without her...
sometimes i feel so left out and everyone
hates me and noone understands me..
but when i look into her eyes i know it's
going to be just fine...i hope the love
anyone gives you is enough to save you..
you nearly broke my heart...

being a little heart broken is part of being in love
thats a pain you're gonna have to live
through...i wish i could hug you one last
time...sherie,i love you and thats the only
thing i have ever been sure about...it's
not easy but it's worth it..
gay is not a synonym for shitty...it never will be
im missing you on a saturday morning...
i don't care bout anything else except you..
i wish i could have the carpal tunnel of love..
and i hope yule shoot your eye out(not)
=)
F.o.B rocks!!

its just nature misery loves me
-seb-

kicking the autumn leaves

what's wrong with me?can someone please help me understand?
am i not good enough for anyone?the world doesn't revolve around me.
i know that but if it did...just for one day..i would be the luckiest kid ever.
i've had my heartbroken.it still is.she said that i couldn't have another chance
when she said that my broken heart broke even more...
it kills me when she writes on his hand even if it's 3 little words.
if i could kill myself right now,i would because she's not worth it
and i'm not worth it.i love you and i guess that's not enough.
i love you sherie and thats all that matters to me just give me one more chance.


i love you,
i love you,
i love you,
i love you,
i love you,
i love you,
i love you,
sherie.


its just nature misery loves me
-seb-

sherie

sherie,

you're my addiction,
you're the one i wake up for,
you're the one who's always on my mind,
you're also the one who broke my heart,

and you can't blame me for being such a jerk
because it hurts.if only you could feel my pain.

no one understands me and no one likes me so i dont blame you
for hating me.i'am trying really hard to get over you
but i love you and you're the only thing that matters to me.

every minute of the day i miss you
i maybe sensetive but that doesn't change the way
i feel about you.i would give anything to hold you right now...

i wish i had a gun then it would so easy
and i think before i do 'it' would you remember me?
its just nature that misery loves me..

-seb-
F.o.B rocks!