Blum-Ness + Bored-ification=DUM DUM DUM DUM

Today...
Well It Wasn't Bad I Guess..
Compared To All The Bullsh*it I Brought To Myself..
So Yeah..
It Wasn't Bad..
I Talked To Sherie..
And Went To Bondy's House..
And Played With Rambo..


But...
I Still Miss Sherie..
And I Love Her..
I Can't Stand A Day Without Her..
So I Try My Best On Weekends..
It Doesn't Work..
But Still...
I Promise Myself I'm Going To Study Tomorrow..
So Call Me Up To Remind Me..
Oh Yeah..


My Phone Is Awesome..
It's Cool..
I Call It 'Fon'
It's Black With Red Designs..
And It's An XpressMusic..
That Means It's Twice As Awesome..
I'm Bored..


I Miss Her To Much To Do Anything Else..
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I Miss Her So Much..
I Just Want To Stare In Her Beautiful Eyes And Forget About The World.

-ChesseBall-

P.S. All The Dates Have Been Mixed Up So Yeah.

I'll Give You Reason.

I Spent One Whole Day Without Her..
I'm Sad..
Really Sad.
I Did This Because I Can't Talk About Stuff She Likes..
And It's Killing Me.
Plus She Likes Some Other Guy..
So...
Yeah.
I Might Be Wrong But It Still Hurts.

I Tried So Hard To Keep My Distance..
For What?
I Don't Really Know..
So I Guess I'll Just Spend The Rest Of My Day Feelling Sad And Worthless..
I Love Her, Don't Get Me Wrong.
I Just Want To Make Her Happy And I Can't..
I'm Going To Go Cut Myself Now...

The 'Perfect' Friday.

Its Been About Nine Hours Since I Last Saw You.
But..
I'm Not Good At Maths..
So..
It Might Be More, Or, Less.
I Miss You.
A Lot.

Let Me Tell You About A Day In The Life Of Sebastian Pettersson.
He Wakes Up All Groggy And Sleepy..
Barely Awake..
But He Gets Up Anyway..
To See Her..
Seb Gets Ready For School,
And On The Way There...
He Realises Some Of His Friends Words Got To Him..
(Being Slow He Only Realised This After One Whole Day)
You See Seb Here.
He Does Not No What To Do With His Feelings..
So He Acts In Stupid Ways And Tends To Alienate His Friends And Loved Ones.
He Doesn't Mean To But What Can You Expect From A Person Who Does Not Use His Brain.
After A While He Pushed His Emotions A Way And Became Normal...
I Guess.
During Art Class,
He Was Sitting With Sherie.
And Some Of Their Friends Came As Well..
Sherie And John And Zaki..
They Were Discussing Methods Of Math Thing..
Being The Genius Sherie Won..
But Seb Couldn't Understand Anything And Felt Left Out..
So He Kept Hema Company While Hema Was Doing His Maths And..
Yeah..
You Get The Point Right?
After Art Was English..
We Went To The Library..
And Stuff..
Sat Down And Sherie Started Talking To Akiff..
So Once Again Seb Felt Left Out..
He Didn't Say Anything But...
If You Had Saw Him From Where I Was Looking At..
You Would Have Seen The Confusion In His Eyes..
English Was The Last Subject Of The Day..
And Seb Was Reluctant To Leave Sherie,
Knowing That He Was Not Going To See Her For Three More Days..
So That Was That And It Was The End Of School..

Coming Back Home..
To His A**hole Of A Brother..
Wasn't Very Nice.
His Brother Never Left Him Alone.
And I Guess That Would Be Okay If His Brother Didn't Bully Or Blackmail Him Every Second Of The Day..
Yes His Brother Is Younger..
But Seb Is..
Well..
Nice In Certain Ways..
So After A Whole Day
And When Everyones Asleep..
Seb Lays In His Bed Waiting For This 'Nightmare' To End..


THE END

I Miss Sherie So Much..
-CheeseBall-

=) x 7=Happy

I Can't Get My Dopey Smile Off My Face.
You Know Why?
Cuz Sherie Replied My Message.
I'm Probally The Happiest Boy In The World.
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There's 7 Smiley's Because I Haven't Seen Her In A Week.
But..
She Replied My Message.
Enough Of My Happiness..
Back To The Real Point Of My Blog.

My Mom Hates Me.
It Just Feels Like She Does..
I Mean..
I Didn't Even Do Anything Wrong.
Who Cares?
I Don't Need Her.
I Guess...
Ok.I Do Need Her, But I'm Not Going To Apologize For The Nothing-ish-ness I Did..

Sometimes I Wish I Could Take Sherie's Hand And Run Away.
And Go To A Far Away Place Where Nothing Can Get To Us..
That's Only If Sherie Wants To.
I'm Happy Even If She Doesn't.
In Terms Of Going Away..

I Can't Even Get My Words Right..
Gosh.
Sometimes I Get So Pissed At Myself.
At Least I Have My Mineral Water...
And My Beloved Sherie.
=)
I Love Her.
And I Miss Her.
A Lot.
A Lot Lot.
A Lot Lot Lot Lot.
You Get The Point?
I Love Her.
And...
Goodnight.

-CheeseBall-

P.S: You Mean The World To Me.

Nothing Without You.

This Is How I Feel Right Now.
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The World:Just Die Seb.Drop Dead Right Now And Die.
Seb :Why?
The World:Because...Um,Noone Likes You,You Screwed Up To Many Times And Well Your Family Is Against You.
Seb :I Get The Point.But People Make Mistakes, Everyone Deserves A Second Chance.
The World:Not You.
Seb: :This Whole Week Has Been F***ed.I Miss Her To Death And There's Almost Nothing I Can Do.
The World:All The More Reason To Die.
Seb :Hey!Everyone Needs Someone To Protect Them..And Without Sherie..
The World:Who Cares!?
Seb :I Do!I Love Her And That Is All That Matters.So Why Don't You Just Shut The F*** Up.
The World:You Left Me Speechless...
Seb :Good For You.
Seb :Who Am I Kidding..I'm Already Dead Without Her..
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Glad I Got 'That' Of My Chest.
Good Night.
-CheeseBall-

Weird-ness Of Me

12.06 a.m. I Can't Sleep.
I'm Thinking Of You.
I Am So Depressed Because I Haven't Seen You For 3 Days..
How Am I Going To Survive For Another Week?

Anyways...
I'm Beginning To Love Myself.
But Not As Much As Loving You..
You Know You Gotta Help Me Out.

I Miss You.
I Just Hope You Miss Me Too.
=)

Today..
Well Sunday,
Was Boring..
I Didn't Go Out..
So...
Yeah.

I Love You..
I Love You So Much.
I Love You With All My Heart And More..

I Had A Dream..
It Was A Bad Dream.
It Started With School,
Your 'Mark' Was There.
In My Dream He Was A Huge Version Of Zakee.
I Got Angry And I Picked A Fight With Him..
The Good News Is..
I Won.
Yeah..
Not Such A Good Dream Eh?

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Worst Comes To Worst.
I Would Have To Let You Go..
I Just Hope You're Happy..
And If It's Not With Me Then...Fine.

I'm Not Helping In Cheering Myself Up.
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Fustrated At What He Did, Seb Reached For His Blade. At That Moment He Realised He Made A Promise To The Love Of His Life And Hesitated Before Looking Away.. Tears In His Eyes Aching To Be In Her Presence.
He Went On His Knees And Looked Into The Sky And Started To Pray.
"Dear God,I Know I Haven't Been Praying Much But..Will You Help Me?"
God Heard His Prayer And Decided To Give This Guy A Break.
"Thanks God, You're The Best"said Seb To himself.
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Please Ignore My Breakdown.
=)
I Miss You Sherie.
I Want To Be With You.
I Love You.

-CheeseBall-

Saturday

I Woke Up Earlier Today.
Just Like I Would On Saturday.
Then I Started Thinking Of How Much I Missed You.
And..
And All The Stupid Things I Would Do:
I Watched Ben 10,
I Ate Loads Of Pizza,
Played Basketball With Loo,
And Started Thinking Of You.

I Realised The Things I Used To Say About You Weren't Very Nice.
But That Was Only Because You Broke My Heart.
I Know Thats A Stupid Reason..
Cuz I Know You Never Meant To..
So I Just Want To Let You Know That I Love You And I'm Sorry.
I Love So Much
And I Miss You More Than Anything Else In This World.

The Only Thing That Helps Me Get Through The Day Is..
Is The Fact That In 1 Week.
I Will Get The Chance To Look In Your Beatiful Eyes.
And See Your Sweet Smile.
If You Read This You Might Call Me Cheesy
Call Me Whatever You Want
This Is The Truth.

I Love You.
And I Hope You Have An Awesome Weekend.

-CheeseBall-