God is Cruel-ish...

I've kinda got issues...
But life is'nt just bout me...
Everyone's got issues..
Just some more than others...
I'm the jealous type..
Real 'Nice'...

Sherie(sigh)
Sometimes I don't get her..
I mean she is real pretty...
And I like her alot..
But she confuses me all the time..
I don't hate her...
It's just sometimes I don't know what to say
Or think when I'm around her..
God she is pretty...
I miss her...

I miss her more than anything in the world...
I miss her eyes..
And her smile...
And..And..She smells like an angel...
(Not that I have come close to an angel)
But...yeah.

Hey God,
If you read blogs..
I want you to know...
Know that...
I love Sherie and I would do anything for her..
Thank You God,Thank You...

Yours Truly,
-theguywhosscreweduptomanytimes-

I Stab Myself With a Key Everyday to Make Sure I'm Not Invinsible

I'm A Dick...
Sherie I'm so Sorry...
I'm a Royal Screw-up...
Sherie if Your Reading This I
Want You to Know I'm Really Sorry...

This blog Goes Out to Sherie:

I'm really sorry...
I just Wanted to Express myself
and I Never Meant to Insult You in anyway
I Want To Talk To You but I don't Know
Where to start...
S.S.L.S

-seb-
p.s.Sherie I'm Really sorry...

Sherie + Zaki

...Fuck...

Hey Sherie?One question...
Do you enjoy seeing me depressed?
Hey Zaki?One question...
How about you?I thought you were my friend...
...Fuck...

I started cutting myself again...
And let me tell you something..
Sherie did not care..
What the Fuck?!

My Mom saw my cuts and freaked out..
Weird..
I'm so jealous and pissed off right now...
Zaki I Fucking hate you..you're the worst friend anyone could ask for...
I don't need this Bullshit...
One more thing...
Everytime I talk to Sherie she makes me feel stupid,worthless,dumb,crushed and HeartBroken...

I hate 'Them'
Especially when they're together...
It pisses me off...
If that DickWeed(Zaki)ever talks to me again I'll make sure his two front teeth comes out...
I lost my phone...so don't bother calling...


Life is Fucked Up
-seb-

Karma

Karma..i didnt believe in it until today..
i skipped class to finish up my geo project thingy...
and then was caught so we had to go down
to kh class..zaki came up with a lame excuse
but we still got away with it..

after class teacher held us back and told us to help her
find someone...then when we got back to class we
were forced to stand outside for half an hour
i mean wtf..this time we were helping teacher and
we still got in trouble..

thats karma for you..
fucked up..

-seb-

The Fight

i got into a fight today..it was not bad
because he hits like a b****
then sherie who's been ignoring me the whole day
started talking to me after 'The Fight'..
and guess what?
she said i was scary and then she cried
how pathetic..(i used a big word=))
i was pissed off naturally..
teacher told me to cool off so i went to the
toilet and broke the stupid mirror..
one more thing...John gave me a f***ing ulser
WTF?!
i hate life..
noone understands me
everyone hates me..
god hates me
i mean GOD..
how can you be hated by god
i have all my feelings locked up inside and i need to talk to someone
but noone wants to help me..
im sick
-Seb-

bona-fide..

sherie slapped me...on tuesday
i feel on my butt...on tuesday
my mom called me a miserable bastard...on tuesday
lets just say tuesday was the worst day of my life
i need help..
tasha told me to apologize...
i've been thinking bout it
but the loo told me sherie doesn't care bout me..

true...
i'm really sick and tired of being so f***ing worthless
sebluvssmj is true
smjhatesseb is truer
sebhateslife is the truest

i hate seeing her smile cuz it makes me weak
i hate it when she walks past me and the wind blows
she smells so sweet..
i dont want to say goodbye...not yet
sherie's to important for me to let go..
i wanna scream i love you from the top of my lungs...

-seb-

after-life...

everyone has got to move on sometime...
my best friend told me that..she also told
me that if you love someone,all you want
for them is to be happy...true...
i will keep loving her and thats all that makes
me happy...even if i'm not with you i just
want you to be happy...
Have you ever seen hell?In your dreams?
i have...my hell is a world without her...
sometimes i feel so left out and everyone
hates me and noone understands me..
but when i look into her eyes i know it's
going to be just fine...i hope the love
anyone gives you is enough to save you..
you nearly broke my heart...

being a little heart broken is part of being in love
thats a pain you're gonna have to live
through...i wish i could hug you one last
time...sherie,i love you and thats the only
thing i have ever been sure about...it's
not easy but it's worth it..
gay is not a synonym for shitty...it never will be
im missing you on a saturday morning...
i don't care bout anything else except you..
i wish i could have the carpal tunnel of love..
and i hope yule shoot your eye out(not)
=)
F.o.B rocks!!

its just nature misery loves me
-seb-