I Give Up On Trying So My Heart Won't Break Again

I Cut My Hair..
So I'm A Little Less..
I Guess.

My Friend's Say She Likes Me
But..
Yeah..
I Met Another Girl
She's...
Cute..
So..I'm Technically Not Talking To Her..
I Guess.

Everytime I Do,
She Just Screws With My Feelings..
And...
Occasionaly It Hurts..
So I Vent This 'Pain'
Through Cuts..
I Call It Falling Down..
Because..
When You Fall Down
You Feel Weird..
Well...
I Do.

She Never Really Listened Or Cared..
I Hug My Bag..
To Keep All My Emotions Inside..
It Helps..
A Little..
My Bag Smells Like..
Well..
Me.
I'm More Or Less Already Dead..

-seb-

My Nose Is Blocked Because I'm Always High On Cocaine

Happy Is Just Another Word For Pretend..
In Short Happy=Pretend..
I Guess I'm Pretending..

I Met This Girl And Now I Can't Get Her Out Of My Mind
It's Weird Because The Last Time I Felt Like This I Got My Heart Broken
I'm Out Of Ideas On What To Blog About
Cuz She's All Thats On My Mind..
So I Guess I'll Blog About 'Roshan Sharma'

It's His Birthday Today So Happy Birthday
I Couldn't Make It To His Party Cuz Of
Some Family Bullshit..
I Bet He Is Having Fun..
He Should Because He Deserves It..

About Post's Title:
Part Of It Is True
The Nose Is Blocked Part..
And I'm Not Always High On Cocaine
Occasionly I Sniff Permanent Marker Ink..

I Give Up..
She's Still On My Mind..
I Gotta Go Take Care Of Some Family Bullshit
Roshan I'm Sorry And Happy Birthday..
I'm Out

-seb-

The Angel Of Saga's Basket Ball Court

I Went To Saga Today..
Obviously To Play Basketball..
Then I Saw This Really Cute Girl..
I Call Her Jaja..
We Talked for Awhile..
And I Walked Off Silently..
I Guess I Was Shy..
But She Was Really Cute..
She's A Lot Younger But Still Cute..
I Can't Even Describe How Cute She Was...
She Was Really Cute..
I Mean Really Cute..

-seb-
p.s.:She Is So Cute..I Think I Like Her..

School A.K.A My Favourite Band Is F.o.B

School...
I Hate School..
Well,I Dont Hate School..I Hate The People In School..
They're Not 'Real'
I Dont Like Them For Pretending To Be Someone Else
That includes me..
The Truth Is I Have A Really Low Self-Esteem and I'm Always Miserable
Not to Mention My Stupid Writing Skills And My Lame Jump Shots...

That's Who I really Am..
A Good For Nothing Loser..
And I'm So Sick & Tired Of the 'Pretends' In School...
School Starts Tomorow..I'm not Going To Pretend Anymore..
I Hate The Teachers Who Think They Have rights Over Us..
They Do But...They Abuse The rights Given To Them..

One Thing I Hate Most about School..
Is The Relationships You Get In..
These Relationships Tend To Break Hearts
And Screw Minds...More than Anything Else
They Make You Lose Focus..
I Mean..I Hate Responsibilities But Sometimes It's A Must..

I Don't Look Forward To School At All..
I Don't Look Forward To Seeing Her Mostly Because She Doesn't Notice Me and I Can't Breathe Around Her..
I Don't Look Forward To My 'Friends'

-seb-

Hold Me When I Don't Want To Be Disturbed

Hey...
I miss Sara and Sherie...
Sara's depressed and Sherie..
Well she does not talk to me=)
But it's ok..I'm used to being left out...

Holidays almost over..
Haven't started my Sej Folio yet..
Life's to short for responsibilities...
Speaking of life..
Mine sucks...
I get yelled at..at home
My friends ignore me(I'm not naming=))
And I'm lonely..

I try to be optimistic..
But it's hard when the world is against you..
It's funny..how my life turned out..
I don't want to try anymore...
So at school..don't talk to me..
Please?Leave me alone okay?

-seb-